nerverogue - Dingbats (The Red.) Lyrics

I'm a good person in disguise
I tell you everything is fine
I tell you everything is
Gonna be alright, babe

Give you that smile with the double-eyes
I save each conversation
So I know where to twist the
Dagger, make you suffer, babe

Am I losing my mind or am I waking up?
If I put on a smile, oh, I could fake you out
This is nobody's bad but my own, and I
Don't know if I can hold my tongue anymore

Sing what you sing, you sing it in dingbats
Say what you say, you say it in dingbats
Thoughts are a crime, you're thinkin' in dingbats
Encode and throw away the

Know what you know, you're so f*ckin' spastic
You're tryin'a talk, but the world talks faster
Crushed by the weight of what you don't get out
Get it out, get it out, get it out, get it out

I'm seeing red
And it's all in my head
These nerves like twisted threads
They weigh me down like lead

And it's all in my head
I know you wanted something said
I'm f*ckin' freaking out instead
Feels like I'm wasting in the red
I'm just a severed head

I'm a sick bastard in disguise
I piss right in between your eyes
Ain't love so beautiful and
Broken down so easily?

No longer too young to die
Modern-day Jekyll and Hyde
Get on your knees, hands 'round your
Throat, and kill your enemy

Am I losing my mind or am I waking up?
If I put on a smile, oh, I could fake you out
This is nobody's bad but my own, and I
Don't know if I can hold my tongue anymore

Sing what you sing, you sing it in dingbats
Say what you say, you say it in dingbats
Thoughts are a crime, you're thinkin' in dingbats
Encode and throw away the

Know what you know, you're so f*ckin' spastic
You're tryin'a talk, but the world talks faster
Crushed by the weight of what you don't get out
Get it out, get it out, get it out, get it out

I'm seeing red
These thoughts burn in my head
These nerves like twisted threads
They weigh me down like lead

And it's all in my head
I know you wanted something said
I'm f*ckin' freaking out instead
Feels like I'm wasting in the red
I'm just a severed head

I remember the first
Time you stabbed me in the back, way back when
And how bad it hurt
Betrayed in blind rage by someone I considered a friend

But I guess I've gotten used to it
I brace myself when you're losing it
I guard my heart, you're abusing it
And then apologize for saying stupid shit, but

It wasn't stupid, it was vile
"I hate your guts, you autistic f*ck, and I
And I hope you die"
My face twitching, I'm trying not to cry

Guess it was just a bad day for you
I guess loneliness was just made for you
Because you burn bridges like paper
Then try and salvage them later

Think I don't know what I did?
You beat and drag it for miles
You think you're being a friend?
Friends don't make friends want to die

I keep on trying to change
It turns my love into rage
Like I'm the only person
I can trust and I'm insane

I'm begging for one more chance
To kill the creature inside
Hold my trembling hands
They might just turn into knives

God, please, just cover your ears
When I'm screaming
I hate you, I hate you
I hate you, I need you tonight

I need you tonight
I need you tonight
I'm sick of wasting in the red