Suicide Letter Video (MV)

I don't know how to act but to tell you the truth I've been living a lie
All I do is get high but I feel so desensitized
I wish I could cry but I keep it held deep down inside
Ever since I was young this has been do or die, when I give up all hope I just dream about suicide
Til I think about what it would do to my mom yeah
And who gone be there for my roommate John? yeah
My dude Treyvon, my day one Sean
I care too much to break their heart yeah
I'm sorry I used to be in it for fame
I'm starting to think that I'm fueled off the hate
They think I'm delusional, but they just don't know it yet
Play this song at my funeral, I'll still be here when there's no one left
I got what you want, I got what you need
I've been thru so much shit but I ain't from the streets
They don't understand what this has done to me
I know who I am but I'm not who I wanna be damn
I do it for the fans yeah
I do it for my famly! yeah
I do it for the love
I do it for the pain
I do it cause I can
Why does the world have to be this way?
Where the good die young and the rich do great
Would ya risk your life if you knew my fate?
Or would ya end your life when you lose your faith?
It's your decision, who the f*ck am I?
I was born for this but I'm stuck inside
Just get over it, you can't ignore the signs
Cause I recorded this and I performed it LIVE
I don't know what it's like to have a sober mind
I've been so fortunate to live a normal life
I've got this war to win and I'm for the fight
And it's not over till I can't afford the vice
That's how that story goes when you snort the white
You know that holy ghost bout to roll the dice
But I'm gone make it one of these lonely nights
And I'll say this when I get to hold the mic
I got what you want, I got what you need
I've been thru so much shit but I ain't from the streets
They don't understand what this has done to me
I know who I am but I'm not who I wanna be damn
I do it for the fans yeah
I do it for my famly! yeah
I do it for the love
I do it for the pain
I do it cause I can