Next to Normal Musical Soundtrack Album Lyrics

Next to Normal Musical Soundtrack Lyrics

Next to Normal: the Musical - Prelude
Next to Normal: the Musical - Just Another Day
Next to Normal: the Musical - Everything Else
Next to Normal: the Musical - Who's Crazy/My Psychopharmacologist and I
Next to Normal: the Musical - Perfect for You
Next to Normal: the Musical - I Miss the Mountains
Next to Normal: the Musical - Its Gonna Be Good
Next to Normal: the Musical - Hes Not Here
Next to Normal: the Musical - You Dont Know
Next to Normal: the Musical - I Am the One
Next to Normal: the Musical - Superboy and the Invisible Girl
Next to Normal: the Musical - Im Alive
Next to Normal: the Musical - Catch Me Im Falling
Next to Normal: the Musical - I Dreamed a Dance
Next to Normal: the Musical - Theres a World
Next to Normal: the Musical - Ive Been
Next to Normal: the Musical - Didnt I See This Movie?
Next to Normal: the Musical - A Light in the Dark
Next to Normal: the Musical - Wish I Were Here
Next to Normal: the Musical - Song of Forgetting
Next to Normal: the Musical - Hey #1
Next to Normal: the Musical - Seconds and Years
Next to Normal: the Musical - Better Than Before
Next to Normal: the Musical - Aftershocks
Next to Normal: the Musical - Hey #2
Next to Normal: the Musical - You Don't Know (Reprise)
Next to Normal: the Musical - How Could I Ever Forget?
Next to Normal: the Musical - It's Gonna Be Good (Reprise)
Next to Normal: the Musical - Why Stay?
Next to Normal: the Musical - I'm Alive (Reprise)
Next to Normal: the Musical - The Break
Next to Normal: the Musical - Catch Me I'm Falling (Reprise)
Next to Normal: the Musical - Maybe (Next to Normal)
Next to Normal: the Musical - Hey #3 / Perfect for You (Reprise)
Next to Normal: the Musical - So Anyway
Next to Normal: the Musical - I Am The One (Reprise)
Next to Normal: the Musical - Light

Prelude
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[Instrumental]

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Just Another Day
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(spoken)
GABE
What's up with this, you haven't waited up for me in months

DIANA
It's 3 in the morning and I'm sitting here counting the ways you could have been killed.

GABE
And tonight's top three are?

DIANA
Drunk driver, avian flu, gang war.

GABE
You've gotta stop watching the news.

DIANA
I was crazy with worry.

GABE
I believe the crazy part. You gotta let go mom, I'm almost 18.

DIANA
Are you snorting coke?

GABE
Not at the moment.

DAN
Who's up at this hour?

DIANA
Your father, go. Up the back way.

GABE
Why does he hate me?

DIANA
Because you're a pain in the ass.

DAN
Everything alright? I heard voices.

DIANA
Just me talking to myself, you know. Now you head on upstairs.
I'll be up for sex in a minute.

DAN
You sure you're ok?

DIANA
Go!

(sung)
DIANA
They're the perfect loving family, so adoring
And I love them every day of every week
So my son's a little shit, my husband's boring
And my daughter is a genius and a freak
We all cherish one another
Father mother sister brother
Cheek to cheek

(spoken)
DIANA
Natalie, it's 3 in the morning, is everything ok?

NATALIE
Everything's great, why wouldn't it be great? It's great!
I've just got 3 more chapters of calculus a physics problem set,
a history quiz and 2 pages on floral imagery in Flowers for Algernon' which so like,
DUH, everything's so under control., it's just like calm.

DIANA
Honey you need to slow down. Take some time for yourself.
I'm going to have sex with your father.

NATALIE
Well, great, I'm so glad I know that.

(sung)
NATALIE
So I do my best to make it all look easy
Just to keep my lovely family off my back
And I act like life is right and life is breezy
And pretend like they're not seriously wack
And some days I think I'm dying
But I'm really only trying not to crack

GABE
For just another day, for another stolen hour
When the world will feel my power and obey

BOTH
It's just another day

GABE
Feeling like I'll live forever

NATALIE
Feeling like this feeling never goes away

BOTH
For just another day.

(spoken)
DAN
That was great, wasn't it. Wow, whoa, that was great. Oh Christ! I'm late.

DIANA
That will teach you to take a whole ten minutes.

DAN
Sorry, what?

DIANA
I said, Isn't it a beautiful day?

DAN
Oh, well its cloudy and raining and really cold for September and sure, it's fantastic.

DIANA
Makes you want to dive in with both feet doesn't it?

DAN
Ah, absolutely. I never know what she's talking about.

(sung)
DAN
When it's up to you to hold your house together
A house you built with tender loving care
But you're grappling with that gray and rainy weather
And you're living on a latte and a prayer

DIANA
Prayer

BOTH
Can you keep the cup from tipping
Can you keep the grip from slipping
In despair, for just another day

DAN
In the hustle and the hurry
You want to wipe you worry clean away

ALL
For just another day.

DIANA
I will keep the plates all spinning

DIANA and NATALIE
With a smile so white and winning all the way

ALL
Cause what doesn't kill me makes me stronger
As long as it's just another day.

GABE
It only hurts when I'm here

ALL
Bum bum bum.

(spoken)
DIANA
You're going to be late and you have a huge day.

GABE
You have no idea what I do all day.

DIANA
Jazz band before school. Class. Key Club. Then football

GABE
Not Bad.

DIANA
Now get out of here

DIANA (sung)
It only hurts when he goes.

ALL(sung)
Bum bum bum

GABE
Morning sunshine.

NATALIE
Good news! I got the date for my final recital.

DIANA
We'll put it on the calendar.

NATALIE
Mom, the calendar is still on April, of last year.

DIANA
Oh, well, Happy Easter!

NATALIE
Happy Easter mom.

NATALIE (sung)
It only hurts when I hide.

ALL (sung)
Bum bum bum.

DAN
Hi sweetheart!

NATALIE
She's on fire this morning.

DAN
Oh, I know. Honey can you do the shopping today,
I'm slammed at work and we're out of everything,

DIANA
I keep cave clean, you go out, get fire.

DAN
Absolutely. Again no clue.

(sung)
DAN
It only hurts when it shows.

ALL
Bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum

DIANA
It only hurts when I breathe

DAN
It only hurts when I try.

GABE
It only hurts when I think.

NATALIE
It only hurts when I cry.

DAN
It only hurts when I work

GABE
It only hurts when I play

NATALIE
It only hurts when I move.

ALL
It only hurts when I say,
It's just another day

(overlapping)
GABE
When the morning sun is showing.

NATALIE
And you wished that you were running far away.

ALL
It's just another day

GABE
Birds are singing bees are crowing
And you wish that'd you'd be going but you

GABE, NATALIE and DAN
Stay stay stay.

DAN
And you stay and stay forever

and GABE
Though you know it's now or never

and NATALIE
And you know you're here forever

ALL
Every day is just another day

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Everything Else
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NATALIE:
Mozart was crazy.
Flat f*cking crazy.
Bad shit, I hear.

But his music's not crazy,
It's balanced, it's nimble,
It's crystalline clear.

There's harmony, logic,
You listen to these.
You don't hear his doubts,
Or his debts or disease.

You scan through the score,
And put fingers on keys,
And you play.
And everything else goes away.
Everything else goes away.

And you play 'til it's perfect,
You play 'til you ache,
You play 'til the strings or your fingernails break.

So you'll rock that recital,
And get into Yale.
So you won't feel so sick,
And you won't look so pale.

'Cause you've got your full ride,
And you're early admit.
So you're done with this school,
And with all of this shit.

And you graduate early,
You're gone as of May,
And there's nothing your paranoid parents can say.

And you know that it's just a sonata away,
And you play,
And you play.
And everything else goes away,
Everything else goes away.
Everything else goes away.

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Who's Crazy/My Psychopharmacologist and I
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DAN
Who's crazy, the husband or wife?
Who's crazy to live their whole life
Believing that somehow things aren't as bazaar as they are?

Who's crazy, the one who can't cope?
Or maybe, the one who'll still hope?
The one who sees doctors or the one who just waits in the car?

And I was a wild twenty-five,
And I loved a wife so alive.
But now I believe I would settle for one who can drive.

DR. MADDEN
...The round blue ones with food, but not with the oblong white ones.
The white ones with the round yellow ones, but not with the trapezoidal green ones.
Split the green ones into thirds with a tiny chisel, use a mortar and pestle to grind...

DIANA
My psychopharmacologist and I.
It's like an odd romance:
Intense and very intimate, we do our dance.

My psychopharmacologist and I.
Call it a lover's game.
He knows my deepest secrets.
I know his... name!

And though he'll never hold me
He'll always take my calls.
It's truly like he told me
Without a little lift, the ballerina falls.

CAST
Do doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo.

DR. MADDEN
Goodman, Diana: Bipolar depressive with delusional episodes.
Sixteen year history of medication.
Adjustment after one week.

DIANA
I've got less anxiety but I have headaches, blurry vision, and I can't feel my toes.

CAST
Ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh.

DR. MADDEN
So we'll try again. Eventually, we'll get it right.

DIANA
Not a very exact science, is it?

CAST
Zoloft and Paxil and Buspar and Xanex, Depacon, Chronaphin, Ambien, Prozac,
Ativan calms me when I see the bills.
These are a few of my favorite pills.

DIANA
Ooh, Thank you, doctor, Valium is my favorite color. How'd you know?

DR. MADDEN
Goodman, Diana: Second adjustment after three weeks.
Delusions less frequent, but depressive state worse.

DIANA
I'm nauseous and I'm constipated, completely lost my appetite and gained six pounds, which, you know, is just not fair.

CAST
May cause the following side effects, one or more:
Dizziness, drowsiness, sexual dysfunction,

GROUP 1
Headaches and tremors, nightmares and seizures.

GROUP 2
(unknown), constipation, nervous laughter, palpitations,

BOTH
Anxiousness, anger, exhaustion, insomnia, irritability,
Nausea, vomiting,

DIANA
Odd and alarming sexual feelings

CAST
OH! And one last thing:
Use may be fatal.
Use may be fatal.
Use may be fatal.

DR. MADDEN
Goodman, Diana: Third adjustment after five weeks.
Reports continue: mild anxiety and some lingering depression.

DIANA
I now can't feel my fingers or my toes. I sweat profusely for no reason.
Fortunately, I have absolutely no desire for sex.
Although, whether that's the medicine or the marriage is anybody's guess.

DR. MADDEN
I'm sure it's the medicine.

DIANA
Oh, thank you, that's very sweet, but my husband's waiting in the car.

DAN
Who's crazy, the one who's half gone?
Or maybe, the one who holds on?
Remembering when she was twenty, and brilliant and bold.
And I was so young, and so dumb.
And now I am old.

DAN
And she was wicked and wired.
The sex was simply inspired.
Now there's no sex, she's depressed
And me, I'm just tired, tired, tired, tired
Who's crazy
The one who's uncured
Or maybe the one who's implored
The one who has treatment, or the one who just deals with the pain

DIANA
And though he'll never hold me
He'll always taken my calls
It's truly like he told me
Without a lift the ballerina falls.
My psychopharmacologist and I...
He's at every sight I lie
Without you I die
My psychopharmacologist and I

DAN
They say love is blind...
But believe me, love is insane.

DR. MADDEN
Goodman, Diana: Seven weeks.

DIANA
I don't feel like myself. I mean, I don't feel anything.

DR. MADDEN
Hm. Patient stable.

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Perfect for You
by Next to Normal: the Musical

(spoken)
NATALIE
Your mom is in like the next room.

HENRY
She's in denial. It's totally convenient. Dude, it's therapeutic.

NATALIE
Right, it's medical marijuana to treat your ADD.

HENRY
Totally. Huh?

NATALIE
I don't put anything in my mouth that's on fire.

HENRY
I guess that's a good rule.

NATALIE.
Look, I can't do this. Not with my life. I'm like one f*ck up from disaster.

HENRY
Your life is not a disaster. The environment is a disaster. Sprint is a disaster.

NATALIE
Ok.

(sung)
HENRY
Our planet is poison, the oceans the air
Around and beneath and above you

NATALIE
Um Henry that's true and I totally care

HENRY
I'm trying to tell you I love you
The world is at war
Filled with death and disease
We dance on the edge of destruction
The globe's getting warmer by deadly degrees

NATALIE
And this is one f*cked up seduction

HENRY
This planet is pretty much broken beyond all repair
But one thing is working if you're standing there
Perfect for you, I could be perfect for you
I might be lazy, a loner, a bit of a stoner it's true
But I could be perfect for you, perfect for you

Airplanes are falling from quiet blue skies

NATLIE
My schedule's a total disaster

HENRY
The world shuts its ears when a starving child cries

NATALIE
We'd sink like Titanic but faster

GABE
Tsunamis and hurricanes crash on the beach

NATALIE
You'll crash even worse if you date me

HENRY
And peace somehow always stays out of our reach

NATALIE
I'll freak and we'll fight and you'll hate me

HENRY
This world may get more and more messed up with each passing year
But we can be flawless, just you and me here
Perfect for you, just let me be perfect for you
We're both slightly crazy
But you, you amaze me, you do
I'll make my self perfect, perfect for you.
You square all the corners
I straighten the curves

NATALIE
You've got some nerve Henry
And I've just all Nerves

HENRY
But even if everything else turns to dirt

BOTH
We can be the one thing in this world that wont hurt

HENRY
I can't fix what's f*cked up
But one thing I know I can do
I can be perfect for you

NATALIE
I can be perfect for you.

BOTH
Perfect for you.

(spoken)
HENRY
Nice house, can I come in?

NATALIE
Oh no.

HENRY
Ok.

GABE
Are you spying on your own daughter?

DIANA
When did she get a boyfriend? How did I miss this?

GABE
Well you kinda miss a lot.

DIANA
Do you think they're in love?

GABE
Who knows? They're young. They're horny. It happens.

DAN
Marry me!

DIANA
What?

DAN
Marry me! Let's have a family. I know, we're too young.
But we're not, I'm almost 23.
And how do you know this isn't a sign saying, we belong together.

DIANA
How do you know it's not a sign saying get new rubbers?

DAN
Because I know its not. I love you, and this baby.

DIANA
Dan,

and NATALIE
This is crazy.

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I Miss the Mountains
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DIANA
There was a time when I flew higher,
Was a time the wild girl running free would be me
Now I see her, feel the fire
Now I know she needs me there to share
I'm nowhere

All these blank and tranquil years
Seems they've dried up all my tears
And while she runs free and fast
Seems my wild days are past

But I miss the mountains
I miss the dizzy heights
All the manic magic days
And the dark depressing nights
I miss the mountains
I miss the highs and lows
All the climbing, all the falling
All the while the wild wind blows
Stinging you with snow
And soaking you with rain
I miss the mountains
I miss the pain

Mountains make you crazy
Here it's safe and sound
My mind is somewhere hazy
My feet are on the ground
Everything is balanced here
And on an even keel
Everything is perfect
Nothing's real
Nothing's real

And I miss the mountains
I miss lowly climb
Wandering through the wilderness
And spending all my time
Where the air is clear and cuts you like a knife
I miss the mountains
I, I miss the mountains
I miss my life
I miss my life

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Its Gonna Be Good
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DAN
Its gonna be good
Its gonna be good
Its gonna be good
Good
Its gonna be good
Two weeks and its all working
Just the way I thought it would
And I don't sit and work
Just waiting for the phone to ring

(spoken)
DIANA
Hello? Oh hi everything's great here sweetie, fantastic!
I disinfected the entire house, rewired the computer and did some decoupage.
Ok, bye bye. Hmm, next I think I'll retile the roof.

(sung)
DAN
Its gonna great
Its gonna great
The sex is still amazing
And we don't stay up that late
It's almost been a month
And she's happy as a clam
Do I look great? I am!

(spoken)
NATALIE
I'd ask you, but I'm not going to.

HENRY
We've been going out for 9 weeks and 3 days. Don't I get to meet your family?

NATALIE
You keep count? You're so the girl. And no.

DAN
Natalie. And this must be Harry.

GABE
Its Henry.

DAN
Pleasure to finally meet you. Come in. Why don't you come in and join us for dinner.

NATALIE
Um dad, Henry can't really stay. He's got
(sung)
DAN
It's gonna be good

NATALIE (spoken)
Homework

DAN
Its gonna be good

NATALIE (spoken)
Surgery

DAN
We'll sit right down together like a happy family should

NATALIE (spoken)
Rabies

DAN
We'll eat and talk and laugh and joke
My pride my brood and me
It's gonna be good you'll see

ALL
We'll smile and chat
And just like that
It'll all me all ok
Its gonna be great
Its gonna be great
Its gonna be gonna be gonna be
Great that way aaaa
Its gonna be good
Its gonna good
We'll sit right down together just like a family should
And eat and talk and laugh and joke my family and me
Its gonna be good gonna be good
Gonna be gonna be gonna be gonna be gonna be
Good good good good good good good good good good
Gonna be good, gonna be good
Gonna be good you'll see.

(spoken)
DIANA
OK! It's someone's birthday

HENRY
Who's birthday is it?

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Hes Not Here
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(spoken)
HENRY
I didn't know you had a brother.

NATALIE
I don't. He died before I was born.

DIANA
What? What is it?

(sung)
DAN
He's not here
He's not here
Love, I know you know
Do you fee he's still real?
Love it's just not so
Why is it you still believe?
Do you dream or do you grieve?
You've got to let him go
He's been dead 16 years
No my love he's not here.

(spoken)
NATALIE
This is f*cked.

DAN
Language!

NATALIE
F*ck this.

HENRY
It was wonderful to meet you both.

DAN
What about the new meds?

DIANA
We have the happiest septic tank on the block.

DAN
You Jesus Di. They were working.

DIANA
They weren't really.

DAN
We'll get a new round. We'll call Dr. Fine.

DIANA
No!

DAN
Diana, look, I know.

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You Dont Know
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DIANA (spoken)
You know, really?
What exactly do you know?

DAN (spoken)
I know you're hurting. I am, too.

DIANA
Do you wake up in the morning and need help to lift your head?
Do you read obituaries and feel jealous of the dead?
It's like living on a cliffside not knowing when you'll dive.
Do you know, do you know what it's like to die alive?

When the world that once had color fades to white and gray and black.
When tomorrow terrifies you, but you'll die if you look back.
You don't know.
I know you don't know.
You say that you're hurting, it sure doesn't show.
You don't know.
You tell me let go.
And you may say so, but I say you don't know.

The sensation that you're screaming, but you never make a sound.
Or the feeling that you're falling, but you never hit the ground.
It just keeps on rushing at you day by day by day by day.
You don't know, you don't know what it's like to live that way.
Like a refugee, a fugitive, forever on the run.
If it gets me it will kill me, but I don't know what I've done.

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I Am the One
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DAN
Can you tell me what it is you're afraid of?
Can you tell me why i'm afraid it's me?
Can I touch you?
We've been fine for so long now
How could something go wrong that i can't see?
Cause I'm holding on
and I won't let go
I just thought you should know

I am the one who knows you
I am the one who cares
I am the one who's always been there
I am the one who's helped you
And if you think that I just don't give a damn
Then you just don't know who I am

Could you leave me

GABE
Hey dad, it's me.

DAN
Could you let me go under?

GABE
Why can't you see?

DAN
Will you watch as I drown

BOTH
And wonder why

DAN
Are you bleeding?

GABE
Are you waiting? Are you wishing? Are you wanting all that she can't give?

DAN
Are you bruised? Are you broken?

GABE
Are you hurting? Are you healing? Are you hoping for life to live?

DAN
Does it help you to know,

BOTH
Well so am I

DAN
Tell me what to do.

GABE
Look at me.

DAN
Tell me who to be.

GABE
Look at me.

DAN
So I can see

BOTH
And you'll see

DAN
I am the one who holds you

GABE
I am

DAN
I am the one who'll stay

GABE
I am

DAN
I am the one

DAN
Who won't walk away

GABE
I won't walk away

DAN
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I am the one who'll heal you

GABE
I am

DAN
And now you tell me that I won't give a damn

GABE
You do give a damn

DAN
But I know you know

BOTH
Who I am
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

DAN
That's who

BOTH
I am
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

DAN
That's who

BOTH
I am
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

DAN
That's who I am
Cause I'm holding on

GABE
And I won't let go

BOTH
Yeah I thought you should know
I am the one who knows you
I am the one who cares
I am the one who's always been there
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I am the one who needs you
And if you think that I just don't give a damn,

DAN
Then you just don't know who I am

DIANA
You say you hurt like me
You say that you know
Oh, you don't know
I know you don't know
You say that you're hurting
I know it ain't so
You don't know
Why don't you just go?
'Cause it lays me low
And I'm saying

DIANA
You don't know

DAN
Who I am

DIANA
You don't know

DAN
Who I am

GABE
You just don't know who I am

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Superboy and the Invisible Girl
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NATALIE
Superboy and the Invisible Girl
Son of Steel and Daughter of Air
He's a hero, a lover, a prince
She's not there

Superboy and the Invisible Girl
Everything a kid oughtta be
He's immortal, forever alive
Then there's me

I wish I could fly
And magically appear and disappear
I wish I could fly
I'd fly far away from here

Superboy and the Invisible Girl
He's the one you wish would appear
He's your hero, your savior, your son
He's not here
I am here

DIANA
You know that's not true
You're our little pride and joy, our perfect plan
You know I love you
I love you as much as I can

NATALIE
Take a look at the Invisible Girl
Here she is, clear as the day
Please look closely and find her before she fades away

NATALIE and GABE
Superboy and the Invisible Girl
Son of Steel and Daughter of Air
He's a hero, a lover, a prince
She's not there
She's not there
She's not there
She's not there

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Im Alive
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I am more than memory
I am what might be I am mystery
Come closer
Come closer

I am old as time
I'm forever young
I am every song that will stay unsung I'll find you
Remind you

Until you name me
You can't tame me
This is one old game
I can play so well

I'm alive im alive
I am so alive
Climb on my back
And we both can fly

I'm alive I'm alive and I'll never die

I'm alive
So alive

I'm alive

I'm alive

I'm alive

I'm alive

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Catch Me Im Falling
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(spoken)
DR. MADDEN
Diana it's been 2 weeks and we've yet o break through to the roots of your depression.
I'd like to try something new today.
Sometimes when these stories are hard to tell hypnosis can be helpful.

DIANA
I don't think I could be hypnotized, I mean it's fine, I'm just not the type.

DR. MADDEN
Put your feet on the floor. And your hands in your lap. Now breathe.

(sung)
Walk with me
Walk with me

DIANA (spoken)
Ok walking

DR. MADDEN
Go all the way the down
Down a long flight of stairs

DIANA (spoken)
Stairs?

DR.MADDEN
Go step by step into the darkness down there

DIANA (spoken)
Should we turn on a light? You know, with stairs.

DR. MADDEN
Walk with me, down a hall
A hall with blue light
At the end of there's a door
It's a door that you've never laid eyes on
Open the door
Open the door

(spoken)
Can you hear me Diana?

DIANA
Yes.

DR. MADDEN
Are you nervous?

DIANA
No

DR. MADDEN
Good. Now.

(sung)
Make up your mind to explore yourself
Make up your mind you have stories to tell
We'll search in your past
For what sorrows may last
Then make up your mind to be well

(spoken)
DAN
Di, you come home form these sessions in tears. Is this helping? Di? Di?

DIANA
We were both undergrads, architecture.
The baby wasn't planned, neither was the marriage.
I had always expected to be too busy but when the baby
came it all seemed to make sense until, until

DR. MADDEN
Until?

(sung)
DAN
He's not here, he's not here
Love I know you know

DR. MADDEN
Make up your mind to live stronger now
Make up your mind let the truth be revealed
Admit what you've lost and live with the cost
At times it does hurt to be healed

GABE
Catch me I'm falling

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
If you tell me the story you own it.

GABE
Catch me I'm falling

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
If you don't, if you keep it hidden.

GABE
Faster than anyone should

GABE and DIANA
Catch me I'm falling

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
It owns you.

GABE and DIANA
Please hear me calling

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
What's your story Diana?

GABE and DIANA
Catch me I'm falling for good

(spoken)
HENRY
Hey, I'm not supposed to be backstage, but for luck.

NATALIE
Did you see my parents out there?

HENRY
Are you ok?

NATALIE
I'm fine. My dad said they'd both be here.

HENRY
Then I'm sure they will be.

NATALIE
Right.

DIANA
We had Natalie to and I know she knows.
I couldn't hold her in the hospital.

NATALIE
Where the hell are they?

DIANA
I couldn't let myself hold her.

DR. MADDEN
That's the first time you've mentioned Natalie in weeks of therapy.

NATALIE
God. Damnit!

(sung)
She's not there
She's not there
She's not there

DR. MADDEN
Make up your mind you want clarity
Take what you know and then make it make sense
Just admit what you fear
And soon it comes clear
The visions are just your defense

GABE and NATALIE
Catch me I'm falling

HENRY (spoken)
Nat?

GABE and NATALIE
Catch me I'm falling

HENRY (spoken)
Are you gonna be ok?

GABE and NATALIE
Losing myself in the air.

And DIANA
Catch me I'm Falling

HENRY (spoken)
Dude.

GABE, DIANA and NATALIE
Don't leave me crawling
Catch me and show me you care

NATALIE (spoken)
Um thank you for coming. This is & Invention in C&

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Let's try to understand what all this is doing to you, and your family.

NATALIE (spoken)
F*ck.

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Your grief for your son, your distance from Natalie.

NATALIE (spoken)
I'm sorry, I just um, the thing is I'you know what the problem with classical is,
it's so rigid,
structured, you have to play the notes on the page,
there's no room for improvisation.

HENRY (spoken)
Oh no.

(overlapping)
DIANA
Catch me I'm falling
Falling
I'm falling.

(overlapping)
DR. MADDEN
Make up your mind to be free at last
Make up your mind to be truly alive
Embrace what's inside the place that has died
And make up your mind to survive

(overlapping)
ALL
Catch me I'm falling
Catch me I'm falling
Flying head first into fate
Catch me I'm falling
Please hear me calling
Catch me before it's too late
Catch me before it's too late
Catch me before it's too late
Catch me I'm falling
Catch me I'm falling
Catch me I'm falling.

(overlapping)
DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Unresolved loss can lead to depression and a fear of loss to anxiety.
The more you hold to something you've lost the more you fear losing it.
Depression, anxiety, depression, anxiety, one leads to the next, then the other, it's a vicious cycle.

Wouldn't you like to be free from all that finally?
Wouldn't you like to go home clear out his room, maybe
spend some time with your daughter, and let your son go at last?

HENRY (spoken)
Should we go?

DIANA and NATALIE (spoken)
Yes.

GABE (spoken)
Mom?

DIANA (spoken)
Yes I would.

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I Dreamed a Dance
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DIANA
I saw you light the ballroom
With your sparkling eyes so blue
Graceful as an angel's wing
I dreamed a dance with you

You whispered slyly, softly
You told me you would be true
We spun around a thousand stars
I dreamed a dance with you

I know the night is dying dear
I know the day will dawn

GABE
The dancers may disappear
Still the dance goes on

BOTH
And on

DIANA
I'll wake alone tomorrow
The dream of our dance is through
But now until forever love
I'll live to dance with you
I'll dream my love
I'll live my love
And I'll die to dance

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Theres a World
by Next to Normal: the Musical

GABE
There's a world, there's a world I know
A place we can go where the pain will go away
There's a world where the sun shines each day
There's a world, there's a world out there
I'll show you just where
And in time I know you'll see
There's a world where we can be free
Come with me

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Goodman, Diana.

GABE
Come with me

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Discovered unconscious at home.

GABE
There's a world where we can be free

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Multiple razor wounds to wrist and forearms. Self-inflicted

GABE
Come with me

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Sutures, gauze, antibiotics, sedated and restrained. Damnit. ECT is indicated.

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Ive Been
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DAN:
Standing in this room,
Well I wonder what comes now.
I know I have to help her,
But hell if I know how.
And all the times that I've been told
The way her illness goes.
The truth of it is no one really knows.
And every day this act we act gets more and more absurd.
And all my fears just sit inside me, screaming to be heard.
I know they won't, though, not a single word.
I was here at her side
When she called, when she cried.
How could she leave me on my own?
Will it work, this cure?
There's no way to be sure.
But I'm weary to the bone
And whenever she goes flying
I keep my feet right on the ground.
Oh now I need a lift
And there's no one around.

Hey!

GABE:
Hey!

DAN & GABE:
Ohhh

(Together)
DAN:
Ahhh oooh
No

GABE:
Ahh oooh
No

DAN:
And I've never had to face the world without her at my side.
Now I'm strolling right beside her as the black hole opens wide.
Mine is just a slower suicide.
I've been her for the show,
Every high, every low.
But it's the worst we've ever known.
She's been hurt and how?
But I can't give up now.
'Cause I've never been alone.
I could never be alone.

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Didnt I See This Movie?
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DIANA
Didn't I see this movie, with McMurphy and the nurse?
That hospital was heavy, but this cuckoo's nest is worse.
Isn't this the one where in the end the good guys fry?
Didn't I see this movie, and didn't I cry?
Didn't I cry?

NATALIE (spoken)
Why didn't you take me with you?

DAN (spoken)
We don't see much of you these days. Is this Henry a good influence?

NATALIE (spoken)
Like, compared to what?

DAN (spoken)
Okay, that's fair. Your mother is in for a new treatment. ECT.

NATALIE (spoken)
Okay, LMNOP, what is that, I don't know?

DAN (spoken)
Electro-convulsive Therapy. Shock therapy.

NATALIE (spoken)
You're kidding, right? That's bullshit.

DAN (spoken)
Language.

NATALIE (spoken)
It's bullshit! She trusts you!

DAN (spoken)
Natalie!

DIANA
What makes you think I'd lose my mind for you?
I'm no sociopath, I'm no Sylvia Plath

NATALIE (spoken)
What?

DIANA
I ain't no Francis Farmer, I don't fight for you

NATALIE (spoken)
Go away!

DIANA
So stay out of my brain
I'm no princess of pain
Didn't I see this movie, where the doctor looks like you?
Where the patient for impatient and said, "Sorry, doc, I'm through?"
I know where this is going, and I know what you're about.
Cause I have seen this movie and I walked out
I walked out
I'm walking...

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A Light in the Dark
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DAN
One light shines in the drive
One single sign that our house is alive
Our house, our own
So why do I love there alone
Tell me why I wait through the night
And why do I leave on the light
You know, I know
Our house was a home long ago

Take this chance cause it may be our last
To be free, to let go of the past
And to try each as lover or friend
To let love never die if it does we'll pretend
Take my hand and let me take your heart
Keep you far from what keeps us apart
Let us start with a light in the dark

Night falls I stare at the walls

DIANA
I stare at these walls

DAN
I wake and wander the halls

DIANA
I get lost in these halls

DAN
And I ache to the bone

DIANA
It's like nothing I've known

BOTH
I can't get through this alone.

DAN
Take this chance and we'll make a new start
Somewhere far from what keeps us apart
And I swear that somewhere in the night
There's a light, a light in the dark

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Wish I Were Here
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DIANA
In an instant lightning flashes and the burst might leave me blind.
When the bolt of lightning crashes and it burns right through my mind,
It's like someone drained my brain out, set my frozen mind to thaw,
Let the lethargy and pain out, while I stood and watched in awe.

NATALIE
I am riding on the brightest buzz.
I am worlds away from who I was.
And they told me it would change me,
Though they don't know how it does.
Cast (background vocals):
No they don't know how it does.

DIANA
I have lived a life of clouds and gray,
But this is crystal clear.
Wish I were here.
Cast (background vocals):
Wish I were here.
DIANA
I imagine it's remarkable,
Exuberant, austere.
Wish I were here.
Cast (background vocals):
Wish I were here.
DIANA
Wish I were here.
Cast (background vocals):
Wish I were here

NATALIE
It's euphoria, it's anger,
It's the winter wind, it's fire.
Cast (background vocals):
It's the winter wind, it's fire.
NATALIE
And it kills my deepest hunger as it fills me with desire.
I'm the light and heat of every sun.
DIANA
I'm the light and heat of every sun.
NATALIE
I'm a bullet from a magic gun.
DIANA
I'm a bullet from a magic gun.
NATALIE
And I'm trying to enjoy it,
DIANA & NATALIE
But I'm missing all the fun.
Cast (background vocals):
I am missing all the fun.

DIANA & NATALIE
Am i feeling what I think I'm feeling;
The hope, the heat, the fear?
Wish I were here.
Cast (background vocals):
Wish I were here.
Diana and Natalie:
Is this someone else's head trick?
Do I just disappear?
Wish I were here.
Cast (background vocals):
Wish I were here.
Diana and Natalie:
Wish I were here.
Cast (background vocals):
Wish I were... here.

DIANA & NATALIE
Plug me in and turn me on,
And flip the switch, I'm good as gone.
It slits my skin, and trips my brain
And feel the burn, when I don't feel the pain.

Is my brain reborn or is it wrecked,
In freedom or in fear?
Wish I were here.
Cast (background vocals):
Wish I were...

DIANA & NATALIE
Have I blown my mind forever?
Is cloudy my new clear?
Wish I were here.
Cast (background vocals):
Wish I were here.
DIANA & NATALIE
Wish I were here.
Wish I were...

NATALIE
Can I hide my stupid hunger,
Fake some confidence and cheer,
'Wish I were here'?
Wish I were here.

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Song of Forgetting
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DAN (spoken)
You don't remember any of this?

DIANA (spoken)
I should, right?

DAN
This house and all these rooms
Last Christmas or last year
Out back the Dogwood blooms

DIANA
Do I really live here?

DAN
The paint, the walls
All this glass and wood
You don't recall?

DIANA
How I wish I could

DAN
Our house on Walton Way
The house with the red door
Our trip to San Tropez
The whole week a downpour

NATALIE
My first few steps, and my first lost tooth
What nothing yet?

DIANA
Well to tell the truth

DAN
Sing a song of forgetting
A song of the way things were not
Sing of what's lost to you
The time that you never knew
Sing of not remembering when
Of memories that go unremembered and then
Sing a song of forgetting, again

That day our child was born
Our baby girl's first cry
That gray and drizzly morn
I've never felt so high

DIANA
The day we met
And we shared 2 beers

DAN
Then?

DIANA
I forget.

DAN
But that's 18 years

DIANA (spoken)
That Dr. Mitchell said there might be some memory loss.

DAN (spoken)
Dr. Madden.

DIANA (spoken)
Well, see, there you go.

NATALIE
What a lovely cure
It's a medical miracle
With a mind so pure
That she doesn't know anything

DAN
It's there I'm sure
Cause memories don't die.
The don't die

NATALIE
They die

(overlapping)
DAN
Sing a song of forgetting
A song of the way things were not
Sing of what's lost to you
Of times that you never knew

(overlapping)
NATALIE
Sing a song of forgetting
A song of the way things were not
Sing of what's lost to you
What's lost to you
What's lost to you
You never knew

(overlapping)
DIANA
Sing a song of forgetting
A song of the way things were not
Sing of what's lost to you
What's lost to you
What's lost to you
You never knew

ALL
Sing of not remembering when
Of memories that go unremembered and when

DAN
Sing a song of forgetting

NATALIE
Sing a song of forgetting

DIANA
Sing a song of forgetting

ALL
Again

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Hey #1
by Next to Normal: the Musical

HENRY
Hey

NATALIE
Hey

HENRY
I've missed you these days,
I thought you might call.
It's been weeks...

NATALIE
I've been crazed.

HENRY
Hey, hey...
Have you been on the scene?
'Cause you look like a mess...

NATALIE
Thanks, I guess.

HENRY
Are you clean?

NATALIE
Well coming from you...

HENRY
I don't do what you do.

NATALIE
OK, how did it start?

HENRY
But you took it too far.

NATALIE
Oh, I took it too far.

HENRY
Hey! Hey!

NATALIE
Henry, don't!
Don't do this to me!

HENRY
Are we over?
Don't say that we're over.

NATALIE
Don't you want us to be?

HENRY
No, I want who I knew.
She's somewhere in you.
Hey, say...
Will you come to this dance?
It's some spring formal dance...
It's March 1st, and it's cheese.
But it's fun and it's free...

NATALIE
I don't do dances.

HENRY
Do this dance with me?

NATALIE
Goodbye, Henry.

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Seconds and Years
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DR. MADDEN:
A little loss of memory is normal
And helpful in forgetting all her fears

DAN:
I couldn't give a flying f*ck what's normal
We haven't had a normal day in years

DR. MADDEN:
Diana, are things becoming clearer with the treatment

DIANA:
Well yes

DR. MADDEN:
Is life less cloudy than it was before

DIANA:
Yes

DR. MADDEN:
Do you still feel your head is filled with concrete

DIANA:
No, and you're not a scary rock star anymore

DR. MADDEN
Okay. Great.

DAN:
What about her memory?

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Better Than Before
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DR. MADDEN
The memories are there somewhere.
Find some pictures you can share..
Keepsakes of the life that's there behind her.
Keep it light at first that's best,
Careful that she's not distressed,
When the time's right, tell the rest
Remind her.
You'll find her.

DAN
So let's start with something small,
Something personal, and pretty,
I bet you'll know these shiny things...

DIANA (spoken)
They must be tacky trinkets from, I guess, Atlantic City?

DAN
No, actually, Di, they're our wedding rings.

NATALIE (spoken)
It's going well...

DAN
Here's a flower from our wedding,
It was such a sight to see.
And the ceremony; everything w'ed hoped!

NATALIE (spoken)
Um, Dad...

DAN
Well that's how I remember it,
So that's how it'll be.

NATALIE
It was raining.
It was Portland.
You eloped.
(spoken)
I mean, Portland?!

DAN
It's an open book to write here.
It's a life we can restore.
We can get back what we had and maybe more.
Maybe get us back to better than before.

Here's the year we drove the west.
We hit the highway in the Honda,
And I took pictures everywhere we went.
We saw the painted desert, the Grand Canyon, and Aunt Rhonda.
And Nat learned what her middle finger meant.
Here's the first house that we owned on Walton Way,
We loved that place.
Then we built this one on land that we both chose.
And here's a pick of all of us with smiles on every face.
And the photoshopping hardly even shows.

DIANA
You're standing by a lake with all these ducks...
And who's this little chubby girl?

DAN
That's Natalie!

NATALIE
This sucks.

DAN
Gonna get us back to normal.
Gonna get us back to good.
Gonna get back what we had and maybe more.
Gonna get us back to good times,
And forget the things we should
Gonna get us back to better than before.
We can get things back to better than before.

NATALIE (spoken)
Alright, fine.
(sung)
Here's the headline in the paper when you freaked out at the market.
Here's the house on Walton Way after the fire.

DAN (spoken):
Natalie!

NATALIE
Here's the damage to the Honda when you showed me how to park it.

DIANA
Did we crush somebody's cat beneath the tire?

NATALIE (spoken)
Yes, OURS!

DAN
Here's Dad at my recital,
And we're wondering where you are.

DIANA
I remember this,
I made it to the school.

DAN (spoken):
Wait, you remember?

DIANA
It was the year of too much lithium,
I hid out in the car.

DAN (spoken):
Yes!

DIANA
And your swim meet just last year, I'm in the pool..

NATALIE (spoken)
So you are.

DAN
You're getting it,
You've got it, Di.
Hooray!

DIANA
Your life has kind of sucked, I think.

NATALIE
You've got it, yay, hooray!

DAN
Hooray!

DIANA
Hooray!
Gonna get back what I lost there.
Gonna find out who I was.
Gonna open up the gates and let it pour.

DAN
And if memory makes things better,
Well memory always does.
Gonna get us back to better than before.

DIANA & DAN
Make everything much better than before.

NATALIE
Won't anything be better than before?

DIANA
I guess it must be

DAN, DIANA & NATALIE
Better than before.
Better than before.

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Aftershocks
by Next to Normal: the Musical

GABE
They've managed to get rid of me, returned me to the grave
ECT, electric chair, we shock who we can't save
They've cleared you of my memory and many more as well
You may have wanted some of them but who can ever tell
Your brainwaves are more regular, the chemistry more pure
The headaches and the nausea will pass and you'll endure
You son is gone forever though, of that the doctor's sure
The memories will wane, the aftershocks remain
You wonder which is worse, the symptom or the cure

DAN (spoken)
Diana, honey, you've been at this for days.

DIANA (spoken)
There's something missing Dan. It's like its tugging at me. I can almost see it.

DAN (spoken)
Come to bed. If the memories and meant to come back, they will.

HENRY (spoken)
Oh, sorry Ms. Goodman. I just need to talk to Natalie about some homework.
I know it's late and she's not answering her is everything alright?

DIANA (spoken)
Henry

HENRY (spoken)
Yes?

DIANA (spoken)
You remind me of someone. How old are you?

HENRY (spoken)
Seventeen. Why?

DIANA (spoken)
I don't know. Natalie's in her room.

GABE
They've managed to get rid of me. I'm gone without a trace
But sear the soul and leave scar no treatment can erase
They've cut away the cancer but forgot to fill the hole
They moved me from your memory, I'm still there in your soul
Your life goes back to normal now, or so they all believe
Your heart is in your chest again, not hanging from your sleeve
They've driven out the demons and they've earned you this reprieve
The memories are gone. The aftershocks live on
But with nothing to remember, is there nothing left to grieve?

DIANA
With nothing to remember

HENRY
Hey

NATALIE
Hey

HENRY
So tomorrow's the dance
It's annoying I know
But let's go

NATALIE
Not a chance

HENRY
Let me know you again

NATALIE
Not right now

HENRY
Ok when? Say wait and I'll wait

NATALIE
It's already too late

HENRY
There's no way it's too late

NATALIE
Hey, hey

HENRY
There's no way, I'll stay by your side

NATALIE
Henry listen, just shut up and listen.

HENRY
Why do I get denied?

NATALIE
You remind me of me, and how f*cked up I can be.

HENRY
Ok, hey, let's start over clean slate
I'll come by here at 8
If you show
Then we'll go
If you don't, well we'll see

NATALIE
You just don't give up

HENRY
So don't give up on me

NATALIE
Goodbye Henry

DIANA
It's been four weeks since the treatment
And my mind is still a mess
And what's left to be remembered
Well it's anybody's guess
Cause my past is like the weather
It will come and it will go
I don't know, even know
What it is that I don't know
I'm some Christopher Columbus
Sailing out into my mind
With no map of where I'm going
Or of what I've left behind

I don't the things I don't know
I'm sure something's missing
I wish it would show
I don't know, you say take it slow
I do, but how I do, I don't know

DR. MADDEN
Are you talking with your husband?

DIANA
Well he hasn't much to say

DR. MADDEN
Is helping you remember?

DIANA
I remember that's his way

DR. MADDEN
Does the puzzle come together
Piece my piece and row by row?

DIANA
I don't know, I don't know
Where the f*cking pieces go
Cause I don't how this started
So I won't know when it's done

DR. MADDEN
Have you talked of your depression
Your delusions and your son?

DIANA (spoken)
My what?

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
I think you and your husband should talk more.

DIANA (spoken)
We should talk more? That's it?
I don't even remember marrying this man, its not like I'm not some
sexually frustrated soccer mom.

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Interestingly, the underlying challenges are similar. I'll see you next time.

DIANA (spoken)
But

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Hey #2
by Next to Normal: the Musical

HENRY
Hey

NATALIE
Hey

HENRY
So tomorrow's the dance,
It's annoying I know
But let's go.

NATALIE
Not a chance.

HENRY
Let me know you again.

NATALIE
Not right now.

HENRY
Ok, when?
Say wait and I'll wait.

(overlapping)
NATALIE
It's already too late.
Hey, hey!
Will you listen?
Just shut up and listen.

HENRY
There's no way it's too late.
There's no way
I stayed by your side.

Why do I get denied?

NATALIE
You remind me of me.
And how f*cked up I can be.

HENRY
Ok, hey.
Let's start over, clean slate.
I'll come by here at 8.
If you show then we'll go.
If you don't, well we'll see.

NATALIE
You just don't give up.

HENRY
So don't give up on me.

NATALIE
Goodbye, Henry.

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You Don't Know (Reprise)
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DIANA
It's been four weeks since the treatment
And my mind is still a mess
And what's left of me remembered
Well, it's anybody's guess.
'Cause my past is like the weather
It will come and it will go
I don't know, even know
What it is that I don't know

I'm some Christopher Columbus
Sailing out into my mind
With no map of where I'm going
Or of what I left behind

I don't know, the things I don't know.
I'm sure something's missing, I wish it would show
I don't know, you say take it slow,
And I do, although, how I do, I don't know!

DR. MADDEN:
Are you talking with your husband?

DIANA
Well, he hasn't much to say.

DR. MADDEN
Is it helping you remember?

DIANA
I remember that's his way.

DR. MADDEN
Does the puzzle come together piece by piece and row by row?

DIANA
I don't know, I don't know where the f*cking pieces go!
'Cause I don't know how this started, so I won't know when it's done.

DR. MADDEN
Have you talked of your depression, your delusions, and your son?

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How Could I Ever Forget?
by Next to Normal: the Musical

GABE (humming)

DAN (spoken)
What are you doing?

DIANA (spoken)
What is this?

DAN (spoken)
Where'd you get that? It's nothing, an old music box.

DIANA (spoken)
It's the first thing you gave me.

DAN (spoken)
Diana.

DIANA (spoken)
When I was pregnant.

DAN (spoken)
You, you don't need to.

DIANA (spoken)
The first time. The first time?

DAN (spoken)
Diana, you, you shouldn't.

DIANA
We were still living downtown

DAN (spoken)
You shouldn't.

DIANA
My black coat thrown over my blue nightgown
You drove too fast, the lights of the city flew past

DAN (spoken)
Please, don't.

DIANA
How could I ever forget?
Outside the morning was cool and wet
He had such chills but still
He lay there so still
Just 18 months old, so cold
We ran him inside
Lost, worrying, wondering
That hospital room, that gloom

(overlapping)
How could I ever forget?
Screaming at doctors
Alarmed, upset
They said too wait
They never said we were too late
But I was a child raising a child
Those weeks full of joy, then a moment of dread

DAN (overlapping)
How could I ever forget?
I was so upset
Diana don't
You think this will help but it won't
So many years ago
So much we could not know

DIANA
Someone simply said, Your child is

DAN
How could I ever forget?

DIANA
How could I ever forget?

DAN
This was

BOTH
the moment my life was set
That day that I lost you
It's clear as the day we met
How could I ever forget?

DAN (spoken)
Why would you want to remember the things that hurt you?

DIANA (spoken)
I want to remember everything Dan. How did he die? Why? Why?!

DAN (spoken)
Diana, we didn't know. He was sick. But even the doctors missed it.
We took him to the clinic, the specialist, the
ER in the middle of the night. They said he had food allergies.
They said babies cry. We stayed up every night.
You slept in his room but he cried and he cried.

DIANA (spoken)
Until one morning he stopped.

DAN (spoken)
That's enough.

DIANA (spoken)
He was a baby when he died, but I remember him much older.

DAN (spoken)
We should call Dr. Madden.

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It's Gonna Be Good (Reprise)
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DAN (spoken)
We should call Dr. Madden.

DIANA (spoken)
I don't want to call Dr. Madden. I want to make sense of this.
God, what was his name?
I don't ever remember hearing you say his name, what was his name?

DAN (spoken)
Diana.

DIANA (spoken)
What was his name? Please, tell me his name.

DAN
It's gonna be fine, it's gonna be fine.
We'll go back to the Doctor's 'cause we caught it just in time.
We'll take the pills, we'll pay the bills, we'll do more ECT.

DIANA
His name! Our son!

DAN
It's gonna be good, you'll see.

DIANA
What was his name?

DAN
It's gonna be good, you'll see.

DIANA (spoken)
WHAT was his name?

DAN
It's...

DAN & DIANA
Gonna be, gonna be, gonna be...

DAN/DIANA
Good/Name, Good/Name, Good/Name, Good/Name,

DAN/DIANA
Good/What was his name,

DAN/DIANA
Good/What was his, Good/What was his,
What was his, what was his, what was his name!?!?

NATALIE (spoken)
Jesus, dad!

DAN (spoken)
Natalie...

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Why Stay?
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DIANA:
Why stay?
Why stay?
So steadfast and stolid
And stoic and solid
for day after every day
Why stay?
Why stay?
Why not simply give in and get on with living cause everyone knows you tried
but somehow, something died on the way
So tell me why you stay

DIANA & NATALIE:
Why stay?
Why stay?
Enduring and coping and hurting and Hoping for day after f*cking day
Why stay?
Why stay?
Why not simply end it
We'd all comprehend it and most of the world
would say he's better off that way to be free and maybe so is she

DAN (HENRY):
A promise a boy says forever
A boy says whatever may come will come through
and who can know how when all I know now to be true,
is this promise that I made to you.
A question a boy wonders whether (a boy wonders
should I stay) should I stay together the way that they stay
(ohhh either way) for year after year for love or fear either way
thats the promise that I made that day
Here's what I say to the girl who was burning so brightly
Like the light from Orion above
And still I will search for her nightly if you see her please send her my love
And the boy was a boy for all seasons
That boy is long lost to me now (long lost, so lost)
And the man has forgotten his reasons (his reasons ohhh)
But the man still remembers his vow.
A promise a man says forever
A man says I'll never regret or let you
The promise I made to stay and I stay true.
Knowing one day we'd remember that joy You'd remember that girl
I'd remember that boy till we do
The promise I made I'll make it brand new.
A promise that I made to you.

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I'm Alive (Reprise)
by Next to Normal: the Musical

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The Break
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DIANA
They told me that the wiring was somehow all misfiring and screwing up the signals in my brain.
And then they told me chemistry, the juice and not the circuitry,
was mixing up and making me insane.
What happens when the burn has healed when the skin has not regrown?
What happens when the cast, at last, comes off,
and then you find the break was always in another bone?

(spoken: DR. MADDEN:)
Relapse is very common, Diana.
It's upsetting that the dilusional episodes have returned, but not entirely unexpected.

DIANA
They tried a million meds and
They strapped me to their beds and
They shrugged and told me 'that's the way it goes.'
But finally you hit it!
I asked you just what did it.
You shrugged and said that no one really knows.

What happens if the medicine wasn't really in control?
What happens if the cut, the burn, the break was never in my brain,
or in my blood, but in my soul?
What happens if the cut, the burn, the break was never in my brain,
or in my blood, but in my soul?

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Catch Me I'm Falling (Reprise)
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DR. MADDEN
Make up your mind this is clarity
Clarity that you did not have before
The treatment is strong but last only so long
Its maybe your mind's needing more

DIANA (spoken)
Let's say that's not that.

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
The ECT is powerful, it gave you your life back,
But the effects often fade and additional treatments are almost always necessary.

DIANA (spoken)
That wasn't on the form.

DR. MADDEN
Make up your mind that you'll try again
Make up your mind there are moments of light
But one things that's sure is that there is no cure
But that doesn't mean we don't fight

DIANA
Catch me I'm falling

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
We'll return to the talk therapy

DIANA
Sinking and sprawling

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
There's more work to do

DIANA
Maybe I'll let myself fall
Watch me I'm falling
(overlapping)
Maybe the falling
Isn't so bad after all
Isn't so bad after all
Watch me I'm falling
Watch me I'm flying
Somehow surviving

GABE (overlapping)
Maybe the falling
Make up your mind to be free
Make up your mind to be free
Make up your mind
Make up your mind
Make up your

DR. MADDEN (spoken, overlapping)
We may need to look at
A new drug regimen
You have to continue taking medicine
(unknown)
If you leave it untreated, it may be catastrophic.

DIANA (spoken)
I've had this lovely and fascinating relationship with you doctors
And your treatments for 16 years but now I think
I'm done.

DR. MADDEN (spoken)
Diana, medicine isn't perfect, but it's what we have.

DIANA (spoken)
Goodbye Dr. Madden.

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Maybe (Next to Normal)
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DIANA
Maybe I've lost it at last
Maybe my last lucid moment has past
I'm dancing with death, I suppose.
But really, who knows?
Could be I'm crazy to go.
They say you should stay with the devil you know
But when life needs a change
And the one devil won't
You fight to the devil you don't

Maybe I'm tired of the game
Of coming up short of the rules, of the shame
And maybe you feel that way too.
I see me in you
A girl full of anger and hope
A girl with a mother who just couldn't cope
A girl who felt caught
And thought no one could see
That maybe one day she'll be free.

NATALIE
It's so lovely that you're sharing
No, really, I'm all ears
But where has all this caring been
For sixteen years
For all those years I'd pray that
You'd go away for good
Half the time afraid that you really would
When I thought you might be dying
I cried for all we've never be
But there'll be no more crying
Not for me

DIANA
Things will get better you'll see

NATALIE
Not for me

DIANA
You'll see.

NATALIE
Not for me

DIANA
You'll see

NATALIE
Not for me

DIANA
You'll see

NATALIE
Not for me

DIANA
You'll see

Maybe we can't be okay
But maybe we're tough and we'll try anyway
We'll live with what's real
Let go of what's past
And maybe I'll see you at last

We tried to give you a normal life. I realize now, I have no clue what that is.

NATALIE
I don't need a life that's normal
That's way too far away
But something next to normal
Would be okay
Yeah, something next to normal
That's the thing I'd like to try
Close enough to normal
To get by

DIANA
We'll get by

NATALIE
We'll get by

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Hey #3 / Perfect for You (Reprise)
by Next to Normal: the Musical

HENRY
Hey

NATALIE
Hey

HENRY
You look like a star
A vision in blue

NATALIE
Oh I do?

HENRY
And you are
Hey, you came

NATALIE
Well I said that I might

HENRY
I thought we were through
Me and you

NATALIE
Not tonight

HENRY
Will you mom be ok?

NATALIE
Well she might be some day.

HENRY
But for now it's all fine?

NATALIE
She's still on my mind.

HENRY
Can you leave it behind?

NATALIE
Hey, hey

HENRY
Stay, let's see this thing through

NATALIE
Am I crazy?
I might end up crazy

HENRY
I'll be here for you

NATALIE
You say that right here
But then give it a year
Or 10 years or a life
And I could end up your wife
Sitting staring at walls
Throwing shit down the stairs
Freaking out at the store
Running nude down the street
Bleeding out in the bath

HENRY
Perfect for you
I will be perfect for you
So you could go crazy
Or I could go crazy, it's true
Sometimes life isn't sane
But crazy I know I can do
Cause crazy is perfect
And f*cked up is perfect
So I will be perfect

NATALIE
Perfect

BOTH
Perfect for you

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So Anyway
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DIANA
So anyway I'm leaving
I thought you'd like to know
You faithful come-what-may
But clearly I can't stay
We'd both go mad that way
So here I go
And anyway I'm leaving
I guess that you can tell
For years I fought the dread
I wish I'd left instead
But better late than dead
And so farewell

With you always beside me
To catch me when I fall
I'd never get to know the feel
Of solid ground at all
With you always believing
That we can still come through
It makes me feel the fool
To know that it's not true

What doctors call dysfunction
We tried to call romance
And true it's quite a trick
To tell the dancers from the dance
But rather than let chance take me
I'll take a chance
I'll take a chance on leaving
It's that or stay and die
I loved you once and though
You love me still I know
It's time for me to fly
I loved you once and though
I love you still I know
It's time for me to go
And so, goodbye

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I Am The One (Reprise)
by Next to Normal: the Musical

DAN
I am the one who loved you.
I am the one who stayed.
I am the one and you walked away.
I am the one who waited
And now you act like you just don't give a damn.
Like you never knew who I am.

GABE
I am the one who knows you.

DAN
I am.

GABE
I am the one you fear.

DAN
I am.

GABE
I am the one...

GABE
...who's always been here.

DAN
I've always been here

GABE
I am the one who'll heal you.

DAN
I am

GABE
I know you told her that I'm not worth a damn,
But I know you know who I am.

DAN
No.

GABE
I know you know who I am.

DAN
Can't you just leave me alone?

GABE
I know you know who I am.

DAN
Why didn't you go with her?

GABE
'Cause I'm holding on

DAN
Let me go...

GABE
And I won't let go

DAN
Let me go!

GABE
And I want you to know

DAN
Yeah, you don't know

BOTH
I am the one who held you
I am the one who cried
I am the one who watched while you died.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I am the tone who loved you
I tried pretending that I don't give a damn,

GABE
But you've always known who I am.

DAN
Gabe...? Gabriel...?

GABE
Hi, Dad...

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Light
by Next to Normal: the Musical

NATALIE
We need some light.
First of all, we need some light.
You can't sit here in the dark.
And all alone, it's a sorry sight.
It's just you and me.
We'll live, you'll see.

DAN
Night after night,
We'd sit and wait for the morning light.
But we've waited far too long,
For all that's wrong to be made right.

DIANA
Day after day,
Wishing all our cares away.
Trying to fight the things we feel,
But some hurts never heal.
Some ghost are never gone,
But we go on,
We still go on.

And you find some way to survive
And you find out you don't have to be happy at all,
To be happier alive.

NATALIE
Day after day,
Give me clouds, and rain and gray.
Give me pain, if that's what's real.

HENRY & NATALIE
It's the price we pay to feel.

DAN & DIANA
The price of love is loss,

DAN
But still we pay.

DAN & HENRY
We love anyway.

GABE
And when the night has finally gone.
And when we see the new day dawn.
We'll wonder how we wandered for so long, so blind.
The wasted world we thought we knew,
The light will make it look brand new.
So

ALL
Let it
Let it
Let it
Let it
Let it
Shine, shine, shine.

Day after day (day after day),
We'll find the will to find our way.
Knowing that the darkest skies will someday see the sun.

DAN
When our long night is done,

DAN & NATALIE
There will be light.

DIANA
(There will be light.
There will be light)

ALL
There will be light.
When we open up our light.
Sons and daughters, husbands, wives.
Can fight that fight.
There will be light.
There will be light.
There will be light.
There will be light.

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Next to Normal Musical Info:

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Next to Normal is a 2008 American rock musical with book and lyrics by Brian Yorkey and music by Tom Kitt. The story centers on a mother who struggles with worsening bipolar disorder and the effects that managing her illness has on her family. The musical addresses grief, depression, suicide, drug abuse, ethics in modern psychiatry, and the underbelly of suburban life.

Before its Off-Broadway debut, Next to Normal received several workshop performances and won the Outer Critics Circle Award for Outstanding New Score and received Drama Desk Awards nominations for Outstanding Actress (Alice Ripley) and Outstanding Score. After its Off-Broadway run, the show played from November 2008 to January 2009 at the Arena Stage while the theater was in its temporary venue in Virginia.

The musical opened on Broadway in April 2009. It was nominated for eleven Tony Awards that year and won three: Best Original Score, Best Orchestration, and Best Performance by a Leading Actress in a Musical for Alice Ripley. It also won the 2010 Pulitzer Prize for Drama, becoming the eighth musical in history to receive the honor. In awarding the prize to Kitt and Yorkey, the Pulitzer Board called the show "a powerful rock musical that grapples with mental illness in a suburban family and expands the scope of subject matter for musicals."

The first US tour launched in November 2010, with Alice Ripley reprising her Broadway role; the tour concluded in July 2011. The Broadway production closed on January 16, 2011, after 20 previews and 734 regular performances. There have been numerous international productions.
-Wikipedia

Genre(s): Soundtrack, Musical
Year: 2008

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