Nicky Nevermind - Getting Closer Lyrics

I'm finally at a point in my life
Where I feel like
I ain't tripping on
The struggles and strife
No emotions at my throat
I been holding the knife
Slice and dice up all the shit
For which I don't have time
Got a handle on ascension
Like I'm flying a kite
Made a lot of tough decisions
Just to feel this right
Thinking I should settle down
Find a house and a wife
But I've been put through the ringer
More times than I'd like
To admit, we all got struggles
That's the truest of truths
But I've been making peace with mine
Because I WANT to improve
Shit I been working hard so
One day I can have me a booth
I don't sit and twiddle thumbs
Waiting for something to do
Nah I'm on some other shit
Cuz I got goals to pursue
And the music's therapeutic
I don't do this for you
Every time I fell to pieces
Writing rhymes was the glue and
They say that you should wear'em
If you fit in those shoes
Slow your roll
Who are you, I don't know
I'm trying though
I hope I'm getting closer
Self awareness ain't pretty
But it feels beautiful to have it
So I reflect to help correct
My self sabotaging habits
Letting go of self hate
Continuously keep faith
That I can finally escape
All my unhealthy patterns
And Everyday I wake
I continue with the process
Effectively accepting that
I'm still a work in progress
Try not to make comparisons
Cuz I know it ain't contest
Eliminate distractions
Cuz I ain't with the nonsense
I'll continue on this path
My quest will never be finished
My passions everlasting
And it can't be diminished
Cuz on the real I've come to far
For me to put my dreams to rest
So f*ck everybody, I'll do
What I think's the best
For me and mine, stay on the grind
Cuz I got nothing to lose
So Ill rise to the occasion
F*ck hitting the snooze
I know I'll dominate my lane
On any path I choose
And dying without trying
Shit I flat out refuse
Slow your roll
Who are you, I don't know
I'm trying though
I hope I'm getting closer
I won't water down my style
Or put my mind in a box
Shit my ingenuity's
The greatest gift that I've got
I finally have the strength to question
Everything that I was thought
I recognize that lost time when
I'm rewinding all my thoughts
I've fought with myself enough
Taught myself a lot of lessons
Had to empty out my cup
Just to count up all my blessings
Almost lost the vision
Had to polish up my lenses
Reevaluate myself and
What I used to call friendship
I've come to understand
That I'm content with being me
Finally not afraid to show
What was keeping underneath
I gotta lotta shit to say that
I won't clench behind my teeth
Sugar coat for nobody
I ain't really into sweets
If you let that hurt your feelings
That's of no concern to me
Your emotional discipline's
Not my responsibility
My extra time is occupied
By my self discovery
And My main goal in life
Make sure I always feel like me
Slow your roll
Who are you, I don't know
I'm trying though
I hope I'm getting closer