Nico/Nilla - Man up Lyrics

It's been a while
Since I've been honest
Give me a smile
And I'll be sure to wreck this
Perfect performance
Doesnt exist
I'm working too hard
Just to live

"Take this more seriously!"
I'm sorry I tried
"Stop apologizing!"
Useless crying
"Why can't you be a man?"
What the f*ck is that supposed to mean
"I just can't understand"
Consistent overthinking

It's been far too long
Since I felt at peace
The color seems so odd
When I start to bleed
Down here on the floor
Drowning in my self loathing
I can't hear you there
With all of this screaming

" I don't deserve this!"
I went as far as I could go
"10 years and all for nothing!"
I have nothing left to show
"Why can't you be a man?"
What the f*ck!? Is that supposed to mean
"I just can't understand"
Consistent overthinking