What Am I Doing Here? Video (MV)

Screaming through my pillows and the walls of this house
If I can't make my bed, I'll at least make a sound
In the afternoon as I rise to my feet
I can't shake the feeling that I'm already beat

I finally made it
But I don't know what it was for
Trials and tribulations that I have endured
Am I getting through to you, is the transmission clear?
Just wondering what I'm doing here

I ran into you and you said I don't sound well
You said I care so much I should save some for myself
But when I hold onto love, it dies in my hand
That's why I give it away, now do you understand?

I finally made it
But I don't know what it was for
Trials and tribulations that I have endured
Am I getting through to you, is the transmission clear?
Just wondering what I'm doing here

It feels like I've been running away my whole life
It was either that or risk starting another fight
But surely after time has passed, I've changed the tides
I lived in darkness so I'm blinded by this light

I finally made it
But I don't know what it was for
Trials and tribulations that I have endured
Am I getting through to you, is the transmission clear?
Just wondering what I'm doing here