nocea - the mend Lyrics

Every day I'm alive
I fall in love with the world a little more
Every breath that I take
Reminds me, I don't wanna go

The pearly gates of hell are too appealing to the pyromaniac in me
So I'll burn down another bridge with a sigh of relief

Set aflame rose gardens, I'm offended by the thorns
Beauty shouldn't leave one's empty hands bruised and torn
Even after all this time, I don't want it to end
I'll hold on to my fragments 'til the mend

Every day I'm alive
I wish I didn't wake up a little less
Every breath that I take
Pulls me further out my own mess

Didn't know what I was running after until I came to a halt
Didn't understand the need for pleasure until the torment stopped

I suppose I'm lucky to see flowers at all
But sometimes I wish the petals didn't come with flaws
Even after all the time, I recoil visibly
Mistakes are the first things I perceive

Because beauty is pain
And I'm supposed to suffer
After all, the only way to my happy end
Is through

And even if I end up blinded
It doesn't matter if I'm still beautiful
After all, my time in the light
Is fleeting

But every day I'm alive
I let go of those thoughts a little more
And my worth will still be there
When I'm old

Though it's hard to see sometime
The fog is lifting