I swear I really thought I would quit...
I swear I really thought I would quit
But I keep comin' back, can't leave it like that (My true love)
I swear I never wanted an end
But I hear every facet of deceit and the madness (I heard it all)
I guess I really wanted revenge
But I need to be passive, buryin' the hatchet (It's gone)
I guess I wasn't much of a friend
To people needin' me back, with others leadin' me backwards (I'm sorry)
I almost exposed old bones (Almost)
Was so close, I won't let go (So close)
I don't know my own code, though (I don't)
I won't blow, I won't explode
I got pain persuin' me
Rage it brew in me
Came from you and me
Blamin' stupidly (I regret it)
But I can't talk to the dead (Not yet)
I may just say this instead
What's new with me? I'm finally free wit' clarity
Who are we? Just trying to keep our sanity
We're human beings, our diary's are just therapy
Truthfully, sometimes I lack serenity
But I've finally gotten therapy
So you can see I'm really tryna repair things
Bruised and beat, my vices they keep daring
What's new with me? I'm back to singularity
Sometimes I wanna relapse, to relax
And sometimes, I dream I achieve that
Sometimes I dream of when she's back (Still)
Somehow, I keep havin' these flashbacks
Of a different time, misery get inside
Our souls, and homes
We're really just livin' life
The best we can, I can't mend these branches (I can't)
So let me end it, and let me plan
How to bring that child like wonder back (How?)
How to make that smile I want to last (How?)
How to say I'm proud I've come from crap (How?)
How to think I'm proud I ain't run from that, but (I didn't)
I'm hesitant to givin' second chances
Evident I never get an answer
For questions I ask
And messages I send
Amends I can't have
Lessons that I've had, so
What's new with me? I'm finally free wit' clarity
Who are we? Just trying to keep our sanity
We're human beings, our diary's are just therapy
Truthfully, sometimes I lack serenity
But I've finally gotten therapy
So you can see I'm really tryna repair things
Bruised and beat, my vices they keep daring
What's new with me? I'm back to singularity
So, what's new?
What's new with you?