Not For Nothing - My Killer Life Lyrics

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I work a dead-end job that I really hate
I have nothing to do, so I stay up late
Work a nine to five for a lousy wage
This is not what I wanted
I have enough cash just to cover my bills
But I wouldn't last down in Beverly Hills
My boss is asking if I've got any skills
This is not what I wanted
Everything that
I always dreamed of
Feels so hard, yeah
My mind is made up
Sit at home and turn the TV on
And light another one
Fill me up with THC
I do not want to feel a thing
This constant sense of apathy
Is eroding my sense of me
Then fill my lungs with nicotine
Stare at the wall and start to scream
I've given up on all my dreams
Cause living life is killing me
I took my lust for life out with the trash
I tried to quit, but I acted brash
And at this rate I'm gonna crash
This is not what I wanted
I've smoked my brains out too many times
I've been a dick, I've been unkind
So when you left, it was no surprise
Been living life on the sidelines
Everything that
I always dreamed of
Feels so hard, yeah
My mind is made up
Sit at home and turn the TV on
And light another one
Fill me up with THC
I do not want to feel a thing
This constant sense of apathy
Is eroding my sense of me
Then fill my lungs with nicotine
Stare at the wall and start to scream
I've given up on all my dreams
Cause living life is killing me
Self-medicate to eradicate
The pain I feel inside, time to sit and wait
Procrastinate on going straight
But I cannot lie, it ain't going great
Asphyxiate and appreciate
The few good times, like our first date
Accelerate my high heart rate
Glossed over eyes, I'm everything I hate
I've given up on all my dreams
I should go to therapy