novembers over - my eyes Lyrics

I wish you could see you through my eyes
Then you could understand how much this kills me inside
Cause I could never have you
Even if I tried
And I promise you I did
I tired to shoot, my gun don't work and now a bottles in my hand
My father haunts the way I am, I'm sorry mom I've sinned
I tried to tell my friends
But every time I open up I see the judgement in their stance
I'm gonna live forever
Don't worry about the shit that I'm doing
You never helped me anyways
Never should have heard of me
F*ck I hate this city I'm done
I f*cking hate this city I'm done
You don't like me? bitch I don't like me too
I haven't eaten in a day I been stuck in my room
And this hoe throwing shade
Bitch I'm prettier than you
Yeah I don't care if you hate me
I got more money than your father be making
Whenever I'm alone
I think about you still
If I could just pick up my phone
But I'm way too scared to confront my feelings
And I promised you I tried
I tried to shoot myself it jammed
And now I can't even look in your eyes
Why are you acting surpri
Don't worry about the shit that I'm doing
You never helped me anyways
Never should have heard of me
F*ck I hate this city I'm done
I f*cking hate this city I'm done
You don't like me? bitch I don't like me too
I haven't eaten in a day I been stuck in my room
And this hoe throwing shade
Bitch I'm prettier than you
Yeah I don't care if you hate me
I got more money than your father be making