Nugatory Hope - Before I Leave Lyrics

I want to grow, but can only fester
In this home and hearth
The truth's leaking in through a hole in my conscience
Commixing with my lies
Spawning a spar with a heinous charade
That lives to see me fall
Slowly, I'm gulled by its sheen of pretense
Enslaved, entombed by my alibi
So before I leave, just remember this one thing
And when I leave, it's the only thing I need
Just forget my name
Constant downfall
Somehow, penance is in their hands
Duly implacable, 'cause I'm the way I am
My iniquity's always the catalyst for ruination
Suffocated by isolation's stringent chains that forbid escape
Misanthropic and filth-ridden, they loathe me, so
I plan escape in spite of all their disbelief
Give me a lie
Give me a farce
Because I know I live as a lie to be told
(IT'S ALL OKAY)
Spreading about,
Stain on the world's all that I am
Propagating everything I hate
(ABOUT MYSELF)
Destitute of any f*cking palpable integrity
A worthless, soulless, crass, inept reject
Void of humanity
So before I leave, just remember this one thing
And when I leave, it's the only thing I need
Just forget my name
My different avenues of failure have
Found success in reducing me down to this:
A desolate, sick, pathetic subhuman being
So before I leave, just take me as a
Lesson in the irony of your dreams and
What the world wants you to be
God! Please f*cking help!
These thoughts, they never falter
Never falter in this hell!
Make it end! All of this!
TAKE ME AWAY!