Nugatory Hope - Hamartia Lyrics

Here we are again
Steeped in the fruits of my impotence
With the keys of hope in my hands
I crushed and mangled the chariot of change
But I'm so confused
After trudging through the misuse and abuse
I thought I'd found haven for my soul
So why am I losing all control?
I lost control right at the crux
A defect bound to deconstruct
I've failed you more than once so
I won't make a sound
I'll just walk away
(WALK AWAY) It's a shame I'll never make the cut
(ALL IN VAIN) In vain I thought I'd be enough
(IN THE RAIN) In the rain I forfeit hope
So come one and come all to watch me wash away
In the aftermath
Of my crude and self-absorbed attachment
My fading dreams taunt me
In reminder of the hamartia that I am
My reputation's gone so cold and I'm
Giving in to my inner voices in
Unadulterated desperation
Disengaged from any love or joy
I fall and fall and fall from grace to impurity
I beg to stop but I'm forced to march forth
A walking testimony of shame
I lost control right at the crux
A defect bound to deconstruct
I've failed you more than once so
I won't make a sound
I'll just walk away
(WALK AWAY) It's a shame I'll never make the cut
(ALL IN VAIN) In vain I thought I'd be enough
(IN THE RAIN) In the rain I forfeit hope
So come one and come all to watch me fade away
This is where my glory ends
I've got nothing in my defense
I've been ruined chastised by fear
And it will only go down from here