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An Ode to My Ex-Best Friend Video (MV)




Performed By: Nush
Language: English
Length: 3:25
Written by: Anusha Subashkaran




Nush - An Ode to My Ex-Best Friend Lyrics




Come up in my memories
Snapchat let's me think it's a treasury
Laughter feels like a sedative
Cause you're in my head again

Crying in the rain
Hashtag sad boy hours
Laughing in the pain
Hashtag awake at all hours
Smiling through my shame
Hashtag sun and flowers

Cold showers keep me conscious
But my heart beats hollow
Distracting me from myself
But my laughter is shallow

Cause you cut deep
And you know it's peak

The fact that I dwell
The fact that I'm suspended in emotional hell
And you laugh while I cry in my shell

Letting you go despite the pain
I bear no ill-will, that's no lie
I hate that you disappeared, for shame
I'm the one left in the rain

It's been a year now but I'm perpetually bitter
Cause i never really took you for a quitter
But I bear the brunt of your assault
That smile I have is just a front

Tore through my friendships cause we have mutuals
And the friendship we had was truly beautiful
But I just found out that you blame it all on me, huh
Issues of last year made me a martyr
Lack of communication made me a firestarter

I didn't like the person you made me
You helped destroy the last year of my degree
I really hope you're happy, I really do
And I hope youre happy with your number one boo
But, I don't want to get into characters and attack
Cause I promised to be civil and I'm not a scathing cat

Letting you go despite the pain
I bear no ill-will, that's no lie
I hate that you disappeared, for shame
I'm the one left in the rain

It just sucks that I'm still here mourning against my will
If I could, I'd throw these feelings off a hill
But this constant battle of heart and brain
Doesn't stop the pain

It's just a bad time
And I know that I'll be fine
With this changing season
I have more than a few reason s
To be floating in the blue

And just to name a few

My declining mental health
Trying to make my own wealth
Burying a friend, reaching some dead-ends

But anyways I know that I'll heal
I was just handed a bad deal
This feels worse than a breakup
I can admit that, yup
But I'm better off without you
And I guess I'm glad that we're through

Letting you go despite the pain
I bear no ill-will, that's no lie
I hate that you disappeared, for shame
I'm the one left in the rain
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Come up in my memories
Snapchat let's me think it's a treasury
Laughter feels like a sedative
Cause you're in my head again

Crying in the rain
Hashtag sad boy hours
Laughing in the pain
Hashtag awake at all hours
Smiling through my shame
Hashtag sun and flowers

Cold showers keep me conscious
But my heart beats hollow
Distracting me from myself
But my laughter is shallow

Cause you cut deep
And you know it's peak

The fact that I dwell
The fact that I'm suspended in emotional hell
And you laugh while I cry in my shell

Letting you go despite the pain
I bear no ill-will, that's no lie
I hate that you disappeared, for shame
I'm the one left in the rain

It's been a year now but I'm perpetually bitter
Cause i never really took you for a quitter
But I bear the brunt of your assault
That smile I have is just a front

Tore through my friendships cause we have mutuals
And the friendship we had was truly beautiful
But I just found out that you blame it all on me, huh
Issues of last year made me a martyr
Lack of communication made me a firestarter

I didn't like the person you made me
You helped destroy the last year of my degree
I really hope you're happy, I really do
And I hope youre happy with your number one boo
But, I don't want to get into characters and attack
Cause I promised to be civil and I'm not a scathing cat

Letting you go despite the pain
I bear no ill-will, that's no lie
I hate that you disappeared, for shame
I'm the one left in the rain

It just sucks that I'm still here mourning against my will
If I could, I'd throw these feelings off a hill
But this constant battle of heart and brain
Doesn't stop the pain

It's just a bad time
And I know that I'll be fine
With this changing season
I have more than a few reason s
To be floating in the blue

And just to name a few

My declining mental health
Trying to make my own wealth
Burying a friend, reaching some dead-ends

But anyways I know that I'll heal
I was just handed a bad deal
This feels worse than a breakup
I can admit that, yup
But I'm better off without you
And I guess I'm glad that we're through

Letting you go despite the pain
I bear no ill-will, that's no lie
I hate that you disappeared, for shame
I'm the one left in the rain
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Writer: Anusha Subashkaran
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