Nxndo Bz - Where I Stand Lyrics

I've been through a lot lately
Who's my friend? Who's my enemy?
I don't know, I just know
That the real will remain, and this pain will eventually fade

Maybe I haven't seen the worst
Maybe I haven't seen the best
But I'm stuck in the middle like Malcom and I don't know where's my next step or what the outcome will eventually be
I hate, tryna pretend like everything's OK
When it's not and I don't want noone around
These voices in my head, love to declare me dead
Well I was at a point, but now I'm born again
This ain't dreams nor any nightmares
I live what I write, I write what I live even when I fear
That I'll never be good enough
When I run through your ear canal
Straight to the heart
And make a sound
That's not the same like the rest around
Do you get me now?
Cause cliché is not my status
I've been given a different mantle
To inspire the hopeless like Jesus with the parables
Despite all the obstacles that I face myself
This is not a cry for help
I be going at it on my own
When everyone disowned the way I did things, cause it was never their own, but I was never the one to follow the lies I was told

I've failed before, but those were the times that I didn't try
Every single eye, waits to see, when I'll make a mistake
Like it's do or die
Cause I'm supposed to be perfect
I'm not but I'm learning
I'm constantly working to right my wrongs
But where's your concerns when I break down from not being strong in carrying this weight around
Like I'm stuck in a maze
Funny how now I'm amazed by the loyal ones who stay and then stray from the fakes that just try to get into my way
Get outta my way
I'm not tryna make a mil
Just tryna save a mil
Cause I know what it's like to feel
Like you don't belong, inside a box that they force you in
I'm God sent, I won't let Him down
Got alot to make up for
100 is what I am giving now
Never knew what was greatness but it was buried deep down
I was scared of letting go
I was told that I need to believe to achieve and leave all the fear and go follow my dreams
Now I'm here and I'm counting my blessings like 123
Whatever you say is irrelevant
If it's not heaven sent
Had alot of grudges I had been treasuring
Had alot of demons that I was letting in
Always settling, for less
I was a mess, then Jesus cleansed
Every single sin that I had within
With the blood that He shed for every single man
So I know where I stand