Every time I turn around
Every time I draw a breath
I feel I'm sinking underground
I feel my chest arrested
And I'm left fading, intoxicating
Revive my own little hell
But I thought I had been lost to your suffering
And loosed from under your spell
Then I watch you terrify me
I watch you break my heart again
I watch you crawl back under my skin
Every time I see your friends
And every time I pass your house
I feel the rains are closing in
But still I drought without you
I'm left hating your perpetrating
Of lies you know so well
When I thought I had been freed from your suffering
I fall back under your spell
I always thought I was smarter
Than letting myself get wrecked
Feeling like a half-dead martyr
I haven't gotten clear just yet
With little left of life to barter
And no one left to blame
It always ends the same
Now I'm left jaded, intoxicated
By one last "fare thee well"
Cause I thought I had been lost to your suffering
And loosed from under your spell