Life & death against the world don't know what I'm facing next
Blunt to blunt or check to check for me it's both I'm such a mess
Been struggling no cardiac arrest my mind I'm in a rut
This rabbit hole be digging deeper hoping I can find a light
I don't even like to write I don't even like my art
Do I even love myself I'm learning that's another part
Guess I'ma just thug it right that's what my pops was doing bet
I don't want to go but when it's time to dip I'm bound to it
Shorty wanna lay with me I'm curious what am I doing
Empty ideation I know I'm helly expendable
Brody always tryna hate on me it's feeling conjugal
Demons always tryna play with me I flee no Tanjiro
That's just another episode they telling me seek counseling
What's a nigga finna tell me that I'd find astonishing
Guess I'm just a narcissist or in my head or other shit
Guess progress is pointless like this life I'm living everyday
Just think for now
It's been so long since I've smiled
One wish for now
Hold on aye just hold on
Just think for now
It's been so long since you've been gone
One wish for now
Hold on aye just hold on
I think I'm helly damaged to a point I cannot follow from
This point of view I'm talking from is one of one or one and done
Suicide be on my mind like damn I got like 40 more
I don't even feel no more I'm running out of tape for sure
Everything is everything and nothing is my inner scope
Monologue be telling me the worth of everything is no
I got personalities like Anton no Ego
Ratatouille bars make me giggle I be cooking up
Oh Anton Lavey shit f*ck with me meet satanists
I be feeling like a Christian when them niggas pray and shit
See my brody J be tryna stable up his way in it
Bro been moving type of royal shit I've been on steady shit
I be taking lessons from religions tryna make a living
F*ck a money bag I mean I got it but this misery is crazy
Just something I can't manage freely I may fade from all this sinning
I be tire spitting til my grave
Just think for now
It's been so long since I've smiled
One wish for now
Hold on aye just hold on
Just think for now
It's been so long since you've been gone
One wish for now
Hold on aye just hold on