[ Featuring the Aglets ]
I'm tired of never being inspired
The flowers in my head have all died
And I don't know why, I don't know why
I like to think I surround myself with creative types of all kinds
Who like to think but whose eyes can't fulfill the hype in my mind's
I like to drink, sometimes
And I don't know what I want anymore
But I want to be better - much, much better
Somewhere along the way I lost the drive
And all that's been keeping me alive
Is the hope that someday I will find
Someone to stimulate my mind
But I've been wrong before
Looks like I am wrong once more
It won't be long before I die
Or worse, I give up
Or worse, I persevere
And I'm so nervous that I have no purpose here
And I feel worthless, dear
And I don't know what I want anymore
But I want to be better - much, much better
I want to see better - much better
I've got these paperback books, bound
But I've got no one else around to share their secrets I have found
I've got a need for company, but it doesn't seem to come for free
This is a plea to comfort me, honestly
I'm no good all by myself
Always looking for someone else
I want to be better
I want to see better and clearer
I want to feel better
I can hear her say
You do this to yourself
You're the only one to blame
Your guilt, which manifests your fear
Provides an anchor for your shame
And by this time next year, you'll have disowned your own name
Did you mean what you said
Do you think I am empty without you
It's hard not to believe
But it's harder not to make come true
I'm tired of hurting everyone I meet
And of perpetual cold feet
Making excuses for defeat
Playing what you've said on repeat
And I'm tired
I'm so tired
I'm tired of being me
'S been so long since I've been proud of anything I created
I used to be in control, used to think that was related
And now I'm bitter and selfish and jaded
And I hate it
And I want to get
And I want to feel
And I want to see
And I want to deal
And I want to be better
And I want it to be real
I want to be better - much, much better
I want to be better, I want to see better
I want to feel better, I want to get better
But I don't know what I want anymore
