The Bed Video (MV)

I just shit the bed
Everybody wants to get inside my head
I think they should be dead
But I don't know, I'm kinda f*cked
I know I need meds
I can hear them, it's the men
'Round the bend
At the end
They wanna put some lead in my head
I wish I was dead
I just wanna get out of my head
I know I shouldn't be in bed
But I do think that I'm kinda f*cked
I've been taking my meds
I can't hear them, all of my friends
Mind distend, I'm round the bend
The pipes are clogged, electric chair
Just last evening
I woke unbreathing
From the dreams unpeeling my general thoughts
Paint had melted and the gloss lost sheen
I almost felt it
But not quite
Matter buzzed and the thoughts had conscrambled
I got lost in existence's preamble
I took a moment for clarity
I pulled a breath for stillness
I find the paths are overgrown revisiting our place
I went and climbed the mountain though, to see it anyway
I think I knew so far back then that I'd come back today
And see that all the places that we'd known had all decayed
Memory is but a wisp of times that they reflect
It's memory that makes us treat the time spent with respect
Though younger folk do treat the time as if it shall improve
It seems to go downhill from here, so downhill it shall move
Not that my time is over, but I'm just starting to see
The holes that I will fall in due to cursed memory
I will still love as I have done; that's what I'll leave behind
'Cause memory's a sharing thing, so it's not purely mine
I just shit the bed
Everybody wants to get inside my head
I think they should be dead
But I don't know, I'm kinda f*cked
I know I need meds
I can hear them, it's the men
'Round the bend
At the end
They wanna put some lead in my head
I wish I was dead
I just wanna get out of my head
I know I shouldn't be in bed
But I do think that I'm kinda f*cked
I've been taking my meds
I can't hear them, all of my friends
Mind distend, I'm round the bend
The pipes are clogged, electric chair
Nothing ever made sense to me and I know it, yeah
Whatever I say sounds like a made-up story
Well I promise that I never made this up for clout
I'm doing all of this just for my own damn mental health
And if you see me on the street, I hope you pass me by
I don't really wanna talk, but I hope that you're fine