oliver bryan kings - flowers Lyrics

I got my flowers by twenty one
I got, I got, I got
'Cause I got nothing but sober In my baggage
It's now more easier to manage what used to damage
From the first pill of the ambien
To the twenty two pills I swallowed
Wasn't feeling so bien
Wasn't feeling so sane
They looked at my brain
They asked why did I do that
Like what did I have to gain
For all of this pain and depression
I'm feeling the pressure
I stare my reflection
I just see another dimension
I'm begging to die before this Is written
Is this a love letter or my last latter

I'm a complex soul
I have sin there Is no heart so there Is no whole
I fill my Insides with pills for what was robbed or stole
We talking about how much changed In a year
I have my life balanced I'm riding the steer
Went through ups and downs that's the thrill
I should say chill and relax
Like the melatonin through the motion
I was lovin' throwin', blowin' money
That's a cry for help I was pourin'
But the only thing pouring was my blood
I was hungry but In the skies I was floatin'
They say nicotine kills so I go for melatonin
All of a sudden this Is more than addiction

Back to back to controlling
What I called addiction
Can't hold me In place like my feelings
They change through the seasons 'cause ambition
They say music Is art I say my music are paintings
From Misery in the beauty to Perception, greetings
I had to go through hell let go of my grievance
They judged the old me like I used to too
Thought my albums were cheap as If they had no value
To realize the problem Is that I'm the Issue
Had to look real hard into the scope to look through
Hated myself so much
I was cutting
I was flooding
I was running
I was struggling

Yet they say the easiest way to die Is loving, then damn
Then death must be lovin' me
'Cause they don't stop killing my friends for me to continue suffering
But the angels sing with me when I'm burning
'Cause they hear that I'm hurting
Losing my best friend and I turned to a mad man
I couldn't even stand what I did to those that hurt one of my own
I still see my white wings but half of em' dark like they're hunting
Grim reaper can feel me crumbling they're always judging
Why I'm always rushing to f*cking trusting others that are sleeping on me
That'll never be coming to my funeral
'Cause they' tired of all of my preaching
Damn, that must be a reach 'cause I'm reaching

Yet angels, they see I'm always searching, always learning
Till I find what I'm yearning the only thing turnin' is how I'm serving
With the way that I function I'm always up late at night working
'Cause as I said In my album I'm bipolar like Texas
Precious but menace when I rap to all of these ghost
Whenever I roast I see right through em'
Noticing all of the lies 'cause I've been sober on em'
See the devil on my right shoulder turns to an angel on em'
Now my pen Is a dozen times brighter on my stem

Yea
Y'all used to relate when I was depressed and trapped
But now those that hear me In radio understand
So much radio play I'll be stan myself
Confidence I've arrived 'cause I know myself more than you do yourself
Care more about my health than the wealth
I used to say my albums must be cheap 'cause I have no value
But the only thing lacking Is mentality that I didn't pursue

Wasted so much time arguing with myself to find my rescue
In the venues that I'll rap In to help me and you too
So here take your flowers for growing and changing
'Cause you and I wouldn't be who we are today
If It weren't for what happened to us
It Is indeed a must
To let the dust settle
'Cause the past Is a place of reference
Not a place of residence
Bryan Kings, out