oliver bryan kings - sleeping with the enemy (feat. SH3) Lyrics

Lie to me
Break me down
Make me drown
Till I lose my f*cking sake
Every night I f*cking wake
Against my will
So I spill
What I fear
It's what kills
Ya

You wanna feel numb
'Cause you feel like you're going insane
You wanna run away from the hurt and pain
I used to find a friend in me
Now all I see is an enemy

Started from a trust me to crush me
Then leaving me hopeless when you tell your friends i'm a pain in the ass
But how much i care and you can't exchange that for a pair of scraps
I'd tell you that I love you and you caring about a pair of straps
Telling me you feel ugly and i'm like a pair of clothes and pair of straps
Is not what makes you, i'm gonna put you back in track
'Cause your mind playing games on you, insecurities so deep like a stab
How many traps is it gonna take for you to even realize?
You dating a lot of people and you're replacing your feelings
And i'm here replacing everything with alcohol
How many pills can I take till I lose my sake?

I fell in love with your kindness, yes your highness
We're a mess but together we're righteous
I don't think I even know myself because i'm going insane
Every single time i'm sleeping with the enemy
What you tryna' take out of me?
But if I gotta be honest it's starting to feel like you're going for the attack
And i'm using my raps out of a way to cope before we collapse

We would always dance
But now we dance with our demons
But in present time I am spineless
'Cause I feel betrayed
You always shade
So it's always weighed
But could never express 'cause you're stubborn (You wanna feel numb)
You would hate and laid my feelings to hell
So all i have left was to pray ('Cause you feel like you're going insane)

You wanna run away from the hurt and pain
I used to find a friend in me
Now all I see is an enemy

So I could say what I want without you going cray
Then leaving me that way hoping you stay
But whenever it gets hot you sabotaged to doomsday
I know the way I write it helps us both relate 'cause my mind is like yours

In front of your porch my mind is a fortress
Always cautious, always nauseous
Only thing in my mind is a body of corpses
Since the day they shot my friend
So i'm drained out of expectations
Knowing that you'll never come, so f*ck my patience
I keep my problems buried like venom
My body is numb so I forget all of the fun
But when you see me is a happy face
The only place you'll see a trace of my smile is with you
Till the flowers bloom and the night rains for my pain
Daydreaming of better nights with Mary Jane
Can't complain i'm a mess so i'm always stress
Always test your buttons but the whole time you were my vest
Bulletproof through all of your shit and pandemonium
Damn I was always blindly in love through my lyricism

So sometimes I feel like a let shit slide
There was a rope that tied
And as soon as you cried
I felt safe and had nothing but to give
Maybe it's better if I open up my deepest traumas
Bit by bit getting closer through the buzz
With my feelings I am breaking with all these voices
I am waking this beast and he's ready to unleash
But what I didn't realize that rope was on fire
All my secrets, all my pain, that is vulnerable
You used it against me so i stumble through all of my words
'Cause you don't understand the struggle i've gone through
To give you a version of me where you look as me as the happy guy
Always trying to fix your problems
But maybe we're both liars and we can't deny this is a goodbye
The end of the night we ended up sleeping in the same bed
It's like we're both playing victim so I guess we both lied to each other

You wanna feel numb
'Cause you feel like you're going insane
You wanna run away from the hurt and pain
I used to find a friend in me
Now all I see is an enemy

You were open I wasn't
And I guess the only thing I see brighter is a better day
There's not much to say but I wish you well