Olivia Cook - Relapse Lyrics

You
You really got me high
And fly high I did for well over a year
You were my euphoria
My secrets
My downfalls
And I was so caught up in it
Yes, I was addicted
To your touch, your laugh, your kind words
To our fights and our make-ups and our make-outs
And I was spiraling out of control in my
Desire for you, my fixation on what we had
But something tripped us, and not trip like how I tripped when I had you
But in the way that sent us crashing
Obliterated
And I was sent into rehab, and was left to recover alone
I started to have hints of you here and there
But there was no high and no addiction
But little by little, I started to get my hands on you again
Sometimes even literally
And I shrugged it off, I thought that it was no big deal
I was still in rehab, after all
Until I wasn't anymore
That stability was short-lived
'Cause little by little, you snuck back into my life
And truthfully, I have no one to blame but myself
And it's been a downward spiral
And I'm realizing
I'm realizing this is a relapse
A fall back into my same ways
Except it isn't the same at all

The consequences of having you
Were heavy
My nerves were unstable
And though it was painful
I kept you at the ready
Recovery was a long process
I'll tell ya
But finally
I thought I was free
Until it all came crashing

And I'm on the brink of

Relapse
You got me high
So now I'm going down
Collapsed
Say I'm a queen
But seems you got the crown
My vision's failing, getting blurred
When I look at my ex-lover
There goes my will to recover
'Cause you are my trigger

I thought this would be just like before
This is worse
And maybe this is just
Selfish ambition
But I can't stand to see you with her

And I'm on the brink of

Relapse
You got me high
So now I'm going down
Collapsed
Say I'm a queen
But seems you got the crown
My vision's failing, getting blurred
When I look at my ex-lover
There goes my will to recover
'Cause you are my trigger

This time
This time it's crazier
And this time I'm more desperate
And everything is less black and white
This time isn't really a this time, though
Because the deeper I fall back into this addiction
The more I come to understand
That I was never over it at all

And I'm on the brink of

Relapse
You got me high
So now I'm going down
Collapsed
Say I'm a queen
But seems you've got the crown
My vision's failing, getting blurred
When I look at my ex-lover
There goes my will to recover
'Cause you are my
Trigger