Im looking at the past
Out the window
Alone at last
Its draining that
It ain't coming back
It ain't get no better
Its cold weather everytime i feel the pressure
When I part ways,
Roads Diverged
I can see the edge
I feel the verge
Im gripping back
On my baggage
Heart attacks
When I'm lackin
Add it all on and then bag it
F*ckin it up like shit mattered
Bottle it up in some pattern
I see where it goes in the laughter
Im dandy fine in my chapters Too
Outta breath
Stuck in a knoose
Sunset haze in the shiny truth
If you were me and you knew you
You wouldn't know why
All the things I do
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Chorus
Breaking apart my spine
Cinema views rip apart time
Get it off my back f*ck up my vibe
Afflict my fears f*ck up my life
I am addicted to trauma
It Set up my path with the bitches with drama
If I'm living lavish then I aint been feeling it
F*ck all the tragedy
I ain't been healing it no
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If I'm making progress its been slow
Cinema rain on my heart on my coat
Been in my brain all the shit that I sold
I lost it again and Upgraded my dro
For all of the reasons that I do not know
Alone with my demons
Alone in my home
Sit in my head while I make this shit cold
Standing on top of the shit that i broke
Looking beneath me like how did I know
Its been in my path that these people would go
Its been in my path that nobody had hope
I hated that I aint been calling em back
Like how have you been?
And now you have kids
That coulda been me if I letchu back in
That would've special if I made amends
But I never can
Now that im dead
Breaking apart my spine
Cinema views rip apart time
Get it off my back f*ck up my vibe
Afflict my fears f*ck up my life
I am addicted to trauma
It Set up my path with the bitches with drama
If I'm living lavish then I aint been feeling it
F*ck all the tragedy
I ain't been healing it no
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If I was still here
Then it might be the same again
Looking back on it there probably would be more pain again
If nothing else matters then kill me and break outta all of this
I have been living and hurting without any consequence
Fill in the blank, I dont wanna stay
Look at the page, and Look for my name
Look at my face, and see if its me
Tell me you hate me, see me succeed
Tell me you love me, after its fake,
Show me its done, Load up the gun
Tell me mistakes, Look at my face
See if its me, til all goes away