I stopped going outside
This whole past year of my life
And now I'm sitting in the shower
Wondering why
That when all my friends left
I confused the start with the end
And now I'm sitting here
With all these goodbyes
That I never dared send
Can I just break and not bend
Or am I doomed to burn
With all my lies
So I'll start to pretend
That I'm making amends
While I crucify myself
In between these lines
Because I'm a shut in
I'm the friend you don't need
I'm the one that's just not right here
That you feel but can't see
Another off day
Or is this just me
I'm not the person I was way back then
At least that's what I have to believe
Because there's a piece of me
That can't grow up
Because it hates what I'll be
If I give myself to my twenties
This nine to five to sixty-three
So it's grasping out at straws
Some flailing monster in the night
That I could kill off like Van Helsing
But for some reason
That doesn't feel right
Because I'm a shut in
I'm the friend you don't need
I'm the one that's just not right here
That you feel but can't see
Another off day
Or is this just me
I'm not the person I was way back then
At least that's what I have to believe