One Kay - Pain Poetry Lyrics

I was down bad on my dick and I ain't have much
Now it's 22 years worth of pain overflowing drowning my cup
And I know life can get hard up your guard it can get tuff
And it's trash like a junk yard you going far so don't give up
I was smoked 20 blunts a day tryna hide the pain so I got high
I was taking pills the the face hoped they weren't lace so I don't die
If my granny was alive look me in my eyes she would probably cry
I'm a angel in disguise gotta keep going gotta keep trying
And I told myself I would win
And ever since then I was born again
And it's hard to do right when your born in sin
But know God gotta plan for his chosen kids
And I told myself I would win
And ever since then it's been challenging
And seems all the thing I love vanishing
But I won't let it stop me ain't panicking
And my heart has been froze like a mannequin
And it can't unthaw
And I hate my self when I have them thoughts
Suicide on my mind but can't pay that cost
And with all of this shit I been balancing
No the pain want stop
But I still wake up and I get my Guap
I'm a king at heart and I can't be soft
I was down bad on my dick and I ain't have much
Now it's 22 years worth of pain overflowing drowning my cup
And I know life can get hard up your guard it can get tuff
And it's trash like a junk yard you going far so don't give up
I was smoked 20 blunts a day tryna hide the pain so I got high
I was taking pills the the face hoped they weren't lace so I don't die
If my granny was alive look me in my eyes she would probably cry
I'm a angel in disguise gotta keep going gotta keep trying