Onedayvacay - Needed You Lyrics

I needed you close when something died in me
I just needed truth when everyone kept spreading lies to me
I might turn to drugs and fully OD from a line or three
If I disappeared, would you still check if I'm alive and breathing

I know your secrets and you know all mine
I'm playing defense and taking my time
I don't need a reason, I told you I'm fine
Told you I'm fine
My demons keep me up at night, message received
Cut off all my family ties and they feel relieved
Smoke in my lungs, so how do I breathe
Do what you want, but I don't want you to leave
I don't wanna see you below
I just can't see you drown, so I'ma throw you a rope
Lifting you up like I don't want you to fall
Don't want you to fall, I'll go there with you
Take my hand, hold it tight, don't let go

I don't wanna beg you to stay, but I needed you
Never meant to push you away when I needed you
I don't wanna beg you to stay, but I needed you
Never meant to push you away when I needed you

I needed you back way before we ended the conversation
I might've told you, but then you might've felt an obligation
Things got complicated, things got way out of hand
I lost my trust in you, something I can never get back uh
And now these toxins in my system got me crashing, can't update it
I outgrew all these places, I outgrew all my phases
So I'd rather stay at home than be surrounded by these faces
And cut off communications like
You're supposed to help me see it through, reasons why I needed you
Of course I said I'm fine without you, thought about your feelings too
If I'm being honest, I regret the way I treated you
You can't see what I've seen in you
Cancel all my trips like I'm leaving
I don't wanna stay alive, but
You're my only reason for breathing

I don't wanna beg you to stay, but I needed you
Never meant to push you away when I needed you
I don't wanna beg you to stay, but I needed you
Never meant to push you away when I needed you

I don't wanna beg you to stay
I never meant to push you away
I don't wanna beg you to stay

I lost my trust in you
Something I can never get back