Optimistic Gangsta - Letter to Self Lyrics

Dear Optimistic
I hear u had a concert in my city
And I hate that I missed it
I never had a thing 4 Christmas
A poster on my wall
That's a grateful wishlist
I guess u don't even care at all
I sent my email
I sent my gmail
I sent my PayPal
I sent my number
You won't call
I see what they mean
Never meet your hero
You filled with ego
Just know I'm serious
I hate supercillious people
But u don't u care
If I witnessed cancer
My life's a problem
That has no answer
I lost my close friends
I have no best friend
I lost my best friend
The only friend
I ever had
Was a pen in my hand
You don't understand
The type of life I live
The poor gets poorer
And u don't give
U only love your self
How you love someone else
When u complace yourself
See if I was u
I would replace my self
Jump through the turbines
Rewind time
Just to do it two times
And replace myself
Load a Ak
And misplace myself
What's the point of talking
I'm a disgrace myself
Some·times I feel like
I hate myself
Look through my soul in the mirror
I can't even face myself
Self help myself
Before I lose myself
Before I screw myself
Hennessey got me confused myself
Love, Orend
Dear, Orend
Hi Orend
Sorry I missed you
Last night I was with some dude performin
It's Christmas today and the rain is pourin
I remember you too
Me and you were 18
We both had big dreams
I'm sorry we haven't talked at all
See I lost my gmail
I lost email
You don't need a PayPal
I called your number
And you don't pick up
Homie wassup
Never mind
I got the anwser
You witnessed cancer
You lost your best friend
You got no best friend
You got no money
You feel so lonely
You hate yourself
Guess what I disgraced myself
Let me help u
Find a pen
Write on anything
And write to yourself
Tell yourself
You love yourself
And look in the mirror
Oh wait
I am myself
I Can't believe
I'm talking to myself this whole time
This whole time

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