Osi - drifted alone. Lyrics

I'm freezing it is so cold outside
I be writing in my diary so that I could get by
You said ily to my face babygirl why would you lie
Every time I slit on my wrists I'm asking god why
God why god why'd you put me through this shit
Ion got no friends cause all my locals are weird
I gotta make it with music I just wanna make it so that I could live
Oh no don't look at my wrist no

I'm just by myself cuz I got wisdom
Niggas really think ion hear them when I play dumb
Oh no no no ion think I'll open up again I'll never find love
Oh god I'm so upset again oh god I used to cut
Oh no no no don't do it no
I'm tired of fighting all my demons everyday
I don't wanna wake up I don't wanna live I wanna die everyday
Don't feel like I am good enough it feels like I am always late

I'm being distant cause you hurt me too damn much
I don't like my body I gave it some damage
A few months ago I popped some pills for lunch
I was always high it was not the way to live huh
Thank god I'm sober oh oh oh
Thank god it's over oh oh oh
Last time I got high I was cutting on myself
F*ck these percs and xans ima stay by myself
Had to take a break I was losing myself
Didn't even eat I was starving myself
Nobody was there nobody was there to help

Cuz nobody f*cking cares yea lil nigga I could tell
I'll do it on my own ima blow up on my own
I was born alone and I'm gon die alone
I cut all these niggas off now it feels like I won
Yea I won yea I won yea I won
On my own yea alone
I was born alone and now I'll die alone

Y'all didn't care about me so why the f*ck would I care about y'all