I'm such a mess
And I want to disappear
I'm not good at moving forward
I'm so terrified to live
I don't know
What I want in my life
I'm 29 already
During talks I'm petrified
I work so hard on a grown-up job
But my bills are still unpaid
And my husband walks my dog
I'm scared of feelings
And I'm scared of people too
I think I'm defenseless child
Who got easily abused
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
I'm writing my life story
And I tried to be ideal
But I'm hiding from the world
I'm afraid to live for real
I fall in love with this guy from work
But I have a husband and two kids
I'm such an idiot
Cause I love my husband too
And how to go through all these feeling
I'm so angry with myself
So I will hit the ceiling
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
Once I was a perfect child
Who took care of herself
I didn't have help from adults
They were busy with themselves
But now I need a little treatment
And I need attention too
I tried to solve problems alone
I felt deserted and blue
And I know there should be ways
How I can help myself
But I'm in self-destructive mode
Again crawl into my shell
Therapy and friends can support me for sure
But I choose cheap drugs and booze
As my temporary cure
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
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English
I'm such a mess
And I want to disappear
I'm not good at moving forward
I'm so terrified to live
I don't know
What I want in my life
I'm 29 already
During talks I'm petrified
I work so hard on a grown-up job
But my bills are still unpaid
And my husband walks my dog
I'm scared of feelings
And I'm scared of people too
I think I'm defenseless child
Who got easily abused
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
I'm writing my life story
And I tried to be ideal
But I'm hiding from the world
I'm afraid to live for real
I fall in love with this guy from work
But I have a husband and two kids
I'm such an idiot
Cause I love my husband too
And how to go through all these feeling
I'm so angry with myself
So I will hit the ceiling
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
Once I was a perfect child
Who took care of herself
I didn't have help from adults
They were busy with themselves
But now I need a little treatment
And I need attention too
I tried to solve problems alone
I felt deserted and blue
And I know there should be ways
How I can help myself
But I'm in self-destructive mode
Again crawl into my shell
Therapy and friends can support me for sure
But I choose cheap drugs and booze
As my temporary cure
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
And I want to disappear
I'm not good at moving forward
I'm so terrified to live
I don't know
What I want in my life
I'm 29 already
During talks I'm petrified
I work so hard on a grown-up job
But my bills are still unpaid
And my husband walks my dog
I'm scared of feelings
And I'm scared of people too
I think I'm defenseless child
Who got easily abused
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
I'm writing my life story
And I tried to be ideal
But I'm hiding from the world
I'm afraid to live for real
I fall in love with this guy from work
But I have a husband and two kids
I'm such an idiot
Cause I love my husband too
And how to go through all these feeling
I'm so angry with myself
So I will hit the ceiling
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
Once I was a perfect child
Who took care of herself
I didn't have help from adults
They were busy with themselves
But now I need a little treatment
And I need attention too
I tried to solve problems alone
I felt deserted and blue
And I know there should be ways
How I can help myself
But I'm in self-destructive mode
Again crawl into my shell
Therapy and friends can support me for sure
But I choose cheap drugs and booze
As my temporary cure
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
I wish I could put everything together
But my trembling little hands
Cannot hold it any better
I don't know
What I'm doing tonight
The only thing I'm good at
Is ruining my life
My life
Writer: Oleksandra Ostapenko
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