There's a crazy soul living inside of me
Pulls me deep into the smoke that I shouldn't breathe
Makes me hunger for a love that I shouldn't feed
Kills me slowly like cigarette would a fiend indeed
Cold sweats in the bed my head like lead might come down crashing on me
Write it off with the meds my dead eyes lookin for some funds and a cracked I.D
Where did you go?
Who the hell am I to say?
Bless my soul with stillborn empathy
I never used to feel this way
But I can't anymore I'm saying that
I'm all alone around these happy people
Fake smiles burn holes through my obsessive ego
Well I'm not too gone but I want to fade
Well I'm not too gone but I want to fade
Took a flight from the fight takin over me
It's always wrong feelin right when I'm supposed to be more free
Well, why the hell you wanna keep on holdin me? (keep on holdin me)
Yeah there's no escapin isolation with this dopamine
What I mean
I'm all alone around these happy people
Fake smiles burn holes through my obsessive ego
Well I'm not too gone but I want to fade
Well I'm not too gone but I want to fade
Always on the line
When I want to wait
But I'm out of time
Threw it all away
And it crossed my mind
That I got to change
But I'll live another lie
Just to waste another day
Uh, and no one really knows exactly where the f*ck they're supposed to be
Most of us don't even know the person that we hope to be
Lost some people close to me you put it out of focus see the world
With a different lens that's how it goes I give her most of me
To waste another day with you
I wanna stay and hang with you
But damn my time is disapearin can't just waste away too much to do no days to do it
Can't focus on what they doin
Get stuck inside the illusion free your mind of all that pollution
I'm all alone around these happy people
Fake smiles burn holes through my obsessive ego
Well I'm not too gone but I want to fade
Well I'm not too gone but I want to fade