Our Imperfect Future - A LITTLE SANITY Lyrics

I'm trying to determine
If there's still a place for me
And I'm trying to remember
Just who I used to be
I took the brunt for so long
So long I couldn't see
I think I'd give it all
For just a little sanity
So hard to go from love to hate
In the blink of an eye
But it's clear to me
That I must say goodbye
To preserve myself
And keep it all intact
Unlike you I don't have to prove
That this is just an act
Still broken by this trauma
Rumination fills my head
You still pervade my thoughts
Sometimes I wish that I were dead
Still frozen in this moment
Still trapped inside a dream
I'd wake if I were able
Things just are not what they seem
I've become a victim
Of your charming vanity
This fraudulence you've chosen
Seems imbecilic still to me
Denialist of so much
There's no more sanctity
And all along I prayed I'd find
A little sanity
A little sanity
All that I need
(A little sanity)
Is just to believe
(A break from your vanity)
Is what you'd expect
(I've suffered endlessly)
That I must accept
(The life you stole from me)
This disrespect
(The love denied to me)
This disconnect