I'm avoiding a void Freud warned me of
By worming my way into the apple of my eye
I know it sounds paranoid as above so below
Ground zero dark thirty where I heard the well runs dry
Hell I wonder why I try to quench my thirst for knowledge
From any dirty puddle when I'm at a cow college
Cuz nowadays I rather cuddle up with a good book
Then be fuddled by how to transgress ring a bell hooks
Well looks can deceive and I can guess
By the wings you have yet to receive
We've come to the some of nothing
From something I thought we were far beyond
But maybe I was wrong at the end of it all
You said it wasn't my fault but then again
Freire taught me how to lock away
My thoughts in a vault
I'm hemmed in with Hemingway in the corner of the cafe
We spent half the day laughing at our neighbors savoring their lattes
But condemning how they stray away
From nature cuz labors not their taste
He says what a waste of time
Do you see a better paradigm
I agree because I was scared at the time
To embarrass myself in front of an idol of mine
I know it's futile to rival a dead mind
But when they're better than the headlines
I don't mind if I never shine brighter than a dying light
But it only really matters in the end if I'm trying, right
But what am I trying for when I lost a friend to love and war
Cut the ties, I'm alive
Who was I dying for
Who was I fighting for
Who was I writing for
Shelby tells me where the sidewalk ends
And well he's been a better friend than you've ever been
Ever since you left me and met he who shall not be named
Nor blamed for this game you played against us
Against trust was just a part of it all
I was miserable like Margaret Hall
Withdrawals always reinforce walls
Of remorse and of course
I'm the source of all your problems
But who took time to resolve them
You weren't forced to endorse any course of action
Except follow the laws of attraction
Perhaps gravity magnifies abreaction
Or the severity of abstraction
Yet Apollo would swallow
All his pride and passion
Hollow out his home
And throw a match in