OWYL - hell. Lyrics

I don't usually know I'm slipping but there's always some signs
I start reaching out and when I record I'll cry
I usually delete them cuts, but not this time
I'm gonna show some truth, in the booth, I ain't lying.

Now many know me as OWYL, some know me as Enoch Ink
But the day ones knew me when I was PainKillerZ, stop and think
I went through a lot since then, it all was in a blink
And I'm more about the story than the skills when I drink.

I'm no legend in the making, just a speaker of art
Kissed a Sagittarius for 8 years who had heart
And I tore that shit apart, created so many scars
On my wrists on her heart, can't go back and restart.

It took me 4 years to pick the pen up again
I was in recovery and half assin' my steps
But now I'm smoking camel blues and sippin' on Evan
In Hell but heaven sent to spread the message then.

(In hell but heaven sent)
(I knew when I was dead)
(God gave me a second chance)
(Ruined, blew it again)

(In hell but heaven sent)
(I knew when I was dead)
(God gave me a second chance)
(Ruined, blew it again)

(Hell)

Let me go! I know I'm in a f*cking chokehold
Your hands are on my throat and you just won't let go
I use idolize, romanticize how poorly I would cope
But honestly, was years clean when I went back to the dope.

Started with a car accident, got back on the pills
Broken back, no car, no job, hell yeah you know the f*cking drill
Needed more for the pain, needed more just to chill
Was sleeping upright in a chair with a back that hurt still.

Flash forward to when the Vics no longer killed the pain
And I begged my doctor for Percocet, and then he set me straight
Wrote me 40 for 10 days, do the math it's insane
Took the whole bottle, full throttle, as quickly as it came.

Next thing you know, I'm lying up on day two
Thinking bout "I need something new, maybe some blues"
That's when my doctor cut me off and then I had to choose
Was I gonna cut this shit, or continue to use.

(In hell but heaven sent)
(I knew when I was dead)
(God gave me a second chance)
(Ruined, blew it again)

(In hell but heaven sent)
(I knew when I was dead)
(God gave me a second chance)
(Ruined, blew it again)


"Tytus, don't tell the truth, just make up some bullshit-
And if they don't believe, you'll be too f*cked up to knew bitch"
It's 'know'
"Shit, here's some foil and some blue shit"
No no no man I don't wanna do this

"Just a couple puffs, and if you ain't ready for that-
You can just pop em first, then you can feel more relaxed"
My lips are chapped, I haven't ate in days, maybe I should snack
"But if you eat you'll ruin the high, and you ain't wanna do that"

Man I wanna come down... but don't wanna feel shitty
"beg somebody for money dog, we up in the city"
Hmmm that's a pretty good idea, really
"Hell yeah why don't you come to the darkside with me"

Wait no, I know exactly where this goes
I've been here before, I specifically know this road
Where it leads isn't home, and there is no (hope)
"Here, let's peak and shoot up this mother f*cking dope"