Paige Leigh - February Lyrics

I always think about that first week in February
My first time on a stretcher and god its really scary
It's been 7 months since that blade has crossed my skin
But I still call you and ask you how you've been
It wasn't only you it was all the other mess
Though I should've left you caused most of my stress
I didn't want to tell you the last time I was clean
You ask me why I did it and ask if it was me
I've been here once maybe a couple times
Said I was better but it was just lies
The seasons changing and the time flies
But I still wonder what I did that night
That week I was alone, Everyone thought I was home
Trying to get better with people I don't know
You said you cared so much, but yet you didn't show
And when you came around I asked you just to go
I've been here once maybe a couple times
Said I was better but it was just lies
The seasons changing and the time flies
But I still wonder what I did that night
It's been 10 months that I've been clean
I got this weight on my shoulders off of me
I wouldn't say that I'm completely free
All I'm saying is there is hope for me
I've been here once maybe a couple times
Said I was better but it was just lies
The seasons changing and the time flies
But I still wonder what I did that night
I've been here once maybe a couple times
Said I was better but it was just lies
The seasons changing and the time flies
But I still wonder what I did that night