Parallel - Who I've Become Lyrics

Pressure builds, repeated failures
View of self worth tainted from birth
These words cut even said with a grin
The sinking feelings set-in
Can I alter nurture, change
Yet I always end up running from the truth
Lost in static, melodramatic

And every time I talk
It makes me nervous
But everything I'm doing has its place
These patterns change and rearrange
I'm learning who I've become

Pressure builds, thunder fated
Boom or bust I weather out
Can't catch my breath
A dance with death
Everything I wanted
Tear apart the instinctive
Been stitched with unforgiving patterns
I fail to recognize
I guess I'm just another slave to nurture

Motivation leads to deflation
Carry these feelings away
You can't make a decision
Impacting life, causing strife
Relapsing like I'm never changing
Carve me in stone, is this really me
I can't believe
Maybe I'm naive

Every time I talk
It makes me nervous
But everything I'm doing has its place
These patterns change and rearrange
I'm learning who I've become

I've my lost my way, in years of my failure
Taking my time to cleanse
The mind, the body and the soul
I will create the balance
That I've been seeking
Balance
I am only what I've been through
Eliminating all the misuse
Understanding how to hear you
Listen, don't react

Every time I talk
It makes me nervous
But everything I'm doing has its place
These patterns change and rearrange
I'm learning who I've become

Pressure builds, thunder fated
Boom or bust I weather out
Can't catch my breath
A dance with death
Everything I wanted
Tear apart the instinctive
Been stitched with unforgiving patterns
I fail to recognize