Parker Ouellette - Lying Next to Lila Lyrics

My eyes awake and scramble
From the ceiling to the wall
And the sleeping breathing woman where she lays
And through the haze my gaze declares
She's not brunette at all
And it's only Lila's blonde hair in the shade
And my heart slowly sinks
And I'm oh, so alone
And the dark doesn't blink
It just weakens my bones
So I cling to the warmth I've tried hard not to lose
Lying next to Lila, fighting off the Julia blues
Lila's perfume clouds up the room
As she's sleeping there so still
And an old grey cat purrs at
My feet until
Her neighbour pulls a Marlboro
From inside his leather coat
And he takes a drag beneath the window sill
Now the smokes in my nose
And I knight him a son of a bitch
And the patch beneath my clothes
Starts to tingle and itch
But I can't have a smoke, and I've sworn off the booze
Lying next to Lila, wrestling with the Julia blues
A transistor blaring blisteringly
Goes tearing down the street
And a boyish voice is crying
About a dame
The raspy croon belongs
To someone she'd swoon if she'd meet
And I lie each time I say
I don't know his name
But he sings like a bird
About man and his wrongs
And I hear what she heard
And why she loves all his songs
So I get out of bed
And I put on my shoes
I can't lie next to Lila
Losing to the Julia blues
She hears me creeping out the room
And begs for me to stay
"Tonight's the first time you've been by in weeks"
I stumble and explain
That I'm not feeling any way
And she breaks her voice
As tears splash on her cheeks
And she curses me once, says
"You're not who you were,
She's gone now, she's gone
Why won't you let go of her?"
She pursues me to the hall,
And she calls for me to choose
Now I'm lying to Lila,
Denying the Julia blues