PassionLust - Road to Recovery (feat. Myze & Death.R2) Lyrics

I should've known better
Everyone under enough pressure breaks
I'm sorry
What are you gonna do now
I'm gonna let her go
Not cause I love her
But because I need to love myself more
I'm losing myself, trying to find you
Finding myself, only inside you
Addicted to you like a drug that I feen
Demons that talk in my head that I've never seen
What do you know about dealing with depression inside of your dreams
Anxiety hunting your soul in a fight and it seems like you'll never win
When weed isn't enough, you start popping pills
Realizing drinking wasn't for me when it almost got my brother killed
Some of these drugs help me numb up but inside I still feel
Other drugs keep me happy and hype with the adrenaline of how it conceals
But nothing is ever enough to replace you
And I swear to god I've gone in search of solutions
Needing a way out of my head and get rid of these thoughts of confusion
I wanna stay sober but you're my worst addiction yet the only drug that could save me
Maybe it'll kill me but at least I'll die in satisfaction
As nothing can top the feeling you gave me
Do you know how it feels to lose yourself and not eat
Losing your mind, sinking in your thoughts when you're geeked
Waking up every morning with no notifications and your heart skipping a beat
Feeling trapped in the four lonely walls of my life
That cause me to cut myself before sleep
Stopping myself from suicide with hopes you come back
And heal these scars that are deep
I rather lose you
Than lose myself in you
Even though I love you
You'll never love the same
I rather lose you
Than lose myself in you
Even though I love you
You'll never love the same
Perfect chemistry perfect balance
Kept me on the line trying and challenged
Convinced me to show you everything that I knew
Now you show the world trying to forget me with every f*cking you do
F*cked him on the first night
Stayed up f*cking all night
No light
Didn't need it
He gave you what you needed
Heard you liked it
Reasons why I'm grieving
Was it worth leaving for that
Searching for different contact
With no type of contract
You only call me on the am when it suits your convenience
But I wanted you to miss me on the pm cause I gave your life meaning
Instead of blaming my mistakes on why you kept on the low
That you cheated making it once again about you
When it was you who f*cked around going back and forward
And still wanna say I didn't love you
Nah, f*ck you
You claimed to have loved me more so I don't understand
How come right after the break up you f*cked another man
I gave you my heart and my life
And it was you who stabbed me with lies
It was you in disguise
Always fake smiling acting nice
You are not the angel you pretend to be
You're the f*cking devil but you learned it from me
I always saw your potential but blinded myself to what everyone could already see
The woman in black
I rather lose you
Than lose myself in you
Even though I love you
You'll never love the same
I rather lose you
Than lose myself in you
Even though I love you
You'll never love the same
Me extrañas
Mi voz
Mi piel
Mis labios
Mis caricas
Mi olor
Mis ojos
Yo se que si
I knew this day would finally come in a night full of discovery
You talking to men looking to settle but they're none like me
They aren't fun like me
They don't talk or f*ck like me
See I know you miss the laughter and smiles
The good time we shared for a while
Reminiscing going to Cali and f*cking that morning
Kissing and f*cking in the back of the truck enjoying your moaning
Wishing I was holding you on days when it starts thunder storming
The times I got home and you ran into my arms for a kiss
I picked you up and made out with passion hard to resist
F*cking in the bathroom showing you how much your loving I missed
But I rather live without you than with someone who's only addicted to what's appealing
Not knowing what they want from life only looking for the benefit of a one night healing
Switching your mind all the time, based on the mood that you're feeling
You don't believe in my pain as you think I'm seeking attention
I know you aren't in love with me but have love for me, I'm in comprehension
But we end up trying things again and I don't understand
If you're trying to teach me a lesson
You come for affection but give me rejection
Switching your mind from possession to redemption
Trying to pin point all the deceptions
Bringing up the past and switching perceptions
Saying these theories and making up crazy connections
We had potential but I feel the infection
You are a virus full of toxicity full of aggression
And despite all that I still love you but you call it obsession
Saying you wish you could love me the same but nothing in life is perfection
Leaving again failing to see you are my reflection
Everything of you I've created, you're my greatest invention
I hate to think I'm not the one and just another one to join your collection
You won't give me closure or let me move on what's your intention
I thought we had reached acceptance so what do you want
What do you need
Did you only come back to see me suffer and bleed
I thought I was special for being the first with the key
Thinking I was f*cking an angel I only set the devil free
But I wasn't special, someone was bound to do it if it wasn't me
So if you haven't changed and here to stay
Please let me go and fully recover what I lost in me
I always give in with hope you've changed but you just come to f*ck with me
Let me lust and fall in love with me
Im mentally ill, I need to heal myself for the better
Not for whenever you come back anymore, trying to prove myself to you that I'm better
I need to do it for me and show myself I can do better
Show myself I can be better
Show myself I can, I
F*ck this
I don't need to explain myself anymore
Listen, my words ain't gonna mean shit unless you're willing to help yourself
But
Nah
I can't help you if you don't wanna help yourself
You just need to let go
You need to come at peace with yourself
Time to heal
To be comfortable with yourself
Forgive yourself
Love yourself
Lust yourself
You have to come to terms with yourself and understand
You want her but you don't need her
No one needs anyone but themselves
You attract the energy you believe in
Damn bruh is he still talking about her
It's all in your head bruh
It's all in your head
Man let me bring you back
Let's make some music
Someone get the bong ready