Drugs or Depression
My best friend tells me that he wakes up crying
Cuz he was hoping to die in his sleep.
He doesn't shower and he barely eats,
And he sweats through his fitted sheet.
Guitars and amps, and cereal boxes
And cat food clogging the sink.
Well, no one gets in and nothing gets out,
And there's way too much time to think.
Was it drugs or depression,
Or mother's rejection
Or was it in your DNA?
Despite your deep kindness,
Behind your shyness,
All you wanted was to go away.
I thought that writing this song about you
Would be cathartic for me,
But it's making me question just how the f*ck
I didn't take you seriously.
Or, maybe I knew you'd never get out of
This downward spiral you've spun.
Compassion or blindness,
It's one of those things that can never be undone.
Was it drugs or depression,
Financial recession,
Or was it in your DNA?
Despite your deep kindness,
Behind your shyness,
All you wanted was to go away.
When you said we'd all move on,
Well brother, you were right and you were wrong.
It's been a year since I found you there,
And I'm still working on this song.
Your mom sold the house when we cleaned it out.
What a long, rough time it's been.
Jeff's got your bike, and I've got your cat.
Chris's daughter has the mandolin.
Paul's got your 69 pick up.
Marc and Colleen have the Ibenez.
The Martin is with Ryan
And he keeps it by his bed.
Your sister is now my sister
And you're the reason why.
We get together for pancakes,
Yeah, and let each other cry.
A great friend is someone that would die for you.
Yeah, and you would've died for anyone.
The close friends that loved you, well, we were the something
That kept you on the run.
Now it's all over. The clues that uncover
The truth you had up your sleeve.
I wish you'd stayed longer, but if there's a heaven
I bet you're ready to leave.
Was it drugs or depression,
An untold confession
Or was it in your DNA?
Despite your deep kindness,
Behind your shyness,
All you wanted was to go away.
Was it drugs or depression,
An untold confession
Or was it in your DNA?
Despite your deep kindness,
Behind your shyness,
All you wanted was to go away.
All you wanted was to go away.