Paul Resnick - Introspection Lyrics

Spark in the dark, eyes pop, jumpstart the regret machine
You can't get sleep when guilt digs deep but you can't come clean
You've been picking at your scabs to let them bleed
Self-medicating, contemplating which way to plead
Find the time bomb in the calm, tick-tock ka-boom
Pop a pill, alarm buzz, hit snooze til noon

It would do you good if you could forgive yourself
Still no charges have been filed by the commonwealth

Under the sun, one by one come forsaken friends
You need them now but remember how they irked you then
Everyone's the justice gun in their own book
I've been a jerk when I take an unbiased look
Introspection, the destruction of your self-esteem
You're your own voodoo doll dipped in kerosene

It would do you good if you could forgive yourself
Still no word has been heard from the board of health

I thought by now I'd be crucified or buried alive for my sin
But no hellfire comes absolve me from the one
That burns from yeah, deep within

Hush early dusk, fold four flush, no wager made
You can't compete so you retreat from the shit parade
Don't call it anxiety when you're just confused
Don't call it depression. What you got's the blues
Everything I touch must be washed
What grows, cut down to find what's lost

It would do you good if you could forgive yourself
I can't rewind time, I can't save myself

Can't save myself from my memory
Can't run, can't hide from this enemy