Paul Shilling - A Cry for Help Lyrics

Everybody know me but I'm hella lonely
Nothing to numb the pain might just go insane
Might just blow my brains, but don't want to ruin the paint
The paint is keeping me together, but it's falling apart
I got no heart, tore it out, now I'm falling down
Down a deep hole, feeling kinda lethal
I'm end it either for you or for me
I got sadness up to my knees
It'll likely be be me

I'm gonna run
I'm gonna hide
Whatever I do, they follow me won't leave me be
It's me you see
I lack potential, I'm not professional, I'm never enough, all my thoughts existential,
You let me down
Now I'll drown
It's these feelings that make me frown
It's my fault
Brought my life to a halt
Got me thinking about how to end it all, but I won't, I'll turn to an adult
Can't escape myself, but I still hate myself
Hope I can fix myself

I don't think I can take the pain
I don't know how I'm living today
I think it's time you forget my name
I think it's time that I lose the shame

I don't know what I'm gonna do, but it'll be without you
I don't care what I do I just want to be happy
It'll take some time sadly, but I'm hurt badly, and I don't want to live this life if it's all crappy
Tryna make it better, live a life without fetters
Don't want to wear a sweater to cover my arms
Cover scars
Got clean skin
Wanna keep it
So imma preach it

I'm gonna run
I'm gonna hide
Whatever I do, they follow me won't leave me be
It's me you see
I lack potential, I'm not professional, I'm never enough, all my thoughts existential,
You let me down
Now I'll drown
It's these feelings that make me frown
It's my fault
Brought my life to a halt
Got me thinking about how to end it all, but I won't, I'll turn to an adult
Can't escape myself, but I still hate myself
Hope I can fix myself