Peacock Affect - Painting Pictures of a Never Ending Mess Lyrics

I was a gold at the rainbow type of person
And now I realize what it feels like to truly be asleep
If I could change anything in my head I'd add flowers and more of childhood
Because nothing went right until I realized it was all in my head

I go for a walk and think about it all
And how I wish I'd stayed at home

I'm painting pictures of a never ending mess
But if I could change anything I'd change the world and put myself in another one
Because when I'm lying in a field staring at the sky or stars
I want to cry and sleep and die all at the same time
And then be reborn with all I've ever wanted

Staring at the candles in the bathroom while it's raining outside
Whenever someone sees me they have nothing to say