Sometimes I Wonder Video (MV)

Sometimes I wonder, I just sit back and wonder
Sometimes I wonder, I just sit back and wonder
I think about my life, how well off would I be
Is there something better, something I have yet to see

It's just sometimes I wonder
I just sit back and wonder
Sometimes I wonder, I just sit back and wonder

I went to sleep praying for it, woke up praying about it
I don't know what it is, but. I know something gotta give
I feel I gave all I can give
But I refuse to take that this the way I'm spose to live

I swear I've been going through it, my pride won't let me show it
Have some close relatives I lost these past years, I still ain't mourned
Seen my folks in the church, that a enough to keep me from going
I tried that, let go and let God, but I'm too hands on

It's getting hard to hold on, lately I've been losing touch
My family think that I'm strong, My Lady tell me I'm stubborn
I hate to lose the ones you love, then you don't even love the same
"Sked" to feel anything, it reminds me of the pain

GOD calling, you gotta go to check in
I cain't even grieve, I gotta go to work to clock in "Damn"
Lately I've been expecting a breakthrough, till then I gotta make do
Gotta provide, protect and guide, for my son's, My niece and my nephew's

I think bout how I'm living is this the life for me
Will I reach my peak, or fall victim to these streets
I think bout how I'm living is this the life for me
Will I reach my peak, or fall victim to these streets

It's just sometimes I wonder
I just sit back and wonder
Sometimes I wonder, I just sit back and wonder

We done came a long way, still ain't supposed to be here
I feel we gave up somewhere, and settled for what ain't fare
We out here searching for meaning, and end up finding our demons
We take em in and release em, like where is GOD when you need Him

I ain't worried about no Karmma, my suffering make us even
I ain't dead or in jail, and that's how I'm trying to keep it
I go through this shit sober, but now I feel like I need it
Death been getting too close to home, don't take me wrong if I'm leaving

Distance turn into beefing, Beefing turn into war
It could be a lose lose we gotta even the score
It's getting hard to ignore the Ones you love are risk
These losses ain't worth the wins, but we still taking that chance

I protect mines by all means, they'll do the same for me
We go so hard to survive, cause we know dieing Is easy
It's a blessing and a curse, if you really truly love me
F*ck all of that dieing for me
Live for me, Build something Behind The Mask NIGGA

I think bout how I'm living is this the life for me
Will I reach my peak, or fall victim to these streets