Pepi - losing somebody Lyrics

I feel like I'm losing somebody
It's a feeling I'm all too familiar with
I feel like I'm losing somebody
And I don't know what to do

The more I become, the more I have to lose
The more I become, the more wisely I need to choose

I can't tell if I've been changing for the better
But I know I've changed for good
For someone so afraid of falling
I love more than I should

Start to believe that I deserve to bear the things that broke me down
And if there's any goodness left in me, I've lost sight of it now
I bleed myself on purpose just to make the pain believable
And I'm so f*ckin scared that I deserve the things that made me beautiful
Did I deserve the things that made me beautiful

All I've ever known is screaming and crying
And punching the walls till my knuckles start to bleed
And all I've ever done is hope to get better
And pray that the pain would make something out of me