Phantom Limbs - Bargain Lyrics

I always talk myself out of everything
Cause I'm not good enough
Tell me I'm good enough
It's like I'm making a bargain
A deal with the devil
I need the self sabotage
So I can find some peace
With the way that I cut myself off
From all of the things that I
Wanted to be but it never felt right
Pushing my future aside but I might
Cause I think I need another year
And I'm starting to lose control
And if I have to write another f*cking letter to myself
About the things I am
And all the things that I am not
I'm afraid of dying knowing that I never got to live
I know I'm overthinking all the chances that I've missed
Doom scrolling till I find a hit
But that's not it, and that's not it
Maybe my anxiety can force my hand a bit
I doubt that I can be enough
Cause I've tried everything
Not able to accept the weakest parts of who I am
Things have changed since I was young
Feel I've lost my way
Can't keep running from who I
Wanted to be but it never felt right
Pushing my future aside but I might
I think I need another year
Cause I'm starting to lose control
Yeah I wanted to be but it never felt right
Pushing my future aside cause
I think I need another year
And I'm starting to lose control
Making a bargain
A deal with the devil
I need the self sabotage
So I can find some peace
Making a bargain
A deal with the devil
I need the self sabotage
So I can find some peace
I always talk myself out of everything
Cause I'm not good enough
So I cut myself off
Wanted to be but it never felt right
Pushing my future aside
Think I need another year