Phayned - Carrying It All Lyrics

I wake up heavy it's the same routine
A world to manage unseen obscene
Every smile every hand I hold
Who's here for me when the nights grow cold?

Pick up the pieces when they all fall apart
Patch every crack with my breaking heart
I'm the healer the fixer the constant guide
But I'm drowning inside nowhere to hide
Partners lean in friends fall back
Children demand for what I lack
Who's asking me if I'm okay?
They take and take I give away

Carrying it all like the world's on my shoulders
Breaking beneath but they call me their soldier
Carrying it all with no time to fall
Who picks me up when I lose it all?
Always the giver never the taker
The weight gets heavier it's a backbreaker

They call it strength but it feels like chains
Bound to the roles to everyone's pain
Cook the dinner fix their mess
Hide my tears conceal my stress
Partners ask "Why don't you smile more?"
They don't see the battles I ignore
Who am I when I'm not for them?
I've forgotten myself again and again

They say "You're amazing " but it's hollow praise
No one sees me lost in this haze
Tired eyes tired hands tired soul
I'm stitched together but I'm not whole
Who do I lean on when I can't stand?
I'm a stranger in my own demand

Carrying it all like the world's on my shoulders
Breaking beneath but they call me their soldier
Carrying it all with no time to fall
Who picks me up when I lose it all?
Always the giver never the taker
The weight gets heavier it's a backbreaker

One day I'll drop it let it shatter on the ground
But today I carry it with no one around
Tired arms tired heart tired mind
Carrying it all until there's no more time