PH!LLY - Breaking Down Lyrics

Oh I'm breaking down over and over
I'm so sorry
Breaking down
Yeah
I could probably write a trilogy about all the shit I've been through
Couldn't handle my feelings without pills and alcohol, that shit not a joke it controls you
Turn off myself , can't let you know the real me
I think it would hurts more if you really saw me
It hurt to my guts, I really took too many overdoses
I really f*cking called you, how couldn't you notice those?
Mentally abuse and *** too
I couldn't even sleep in peace without somebody touch my body
Those nasty ass friend, ah, they are nobody
Put the blame on me for shit they would sit a time for
I got a list, should I drop it before I lock the door?
Karma is real, she is me, I'll put you all on the floor
Wait there is more
The man you loved , was in love with me too
Bitch , He didn't even f*cking like you
(hoe)
I keep breaking down breaking down
Searching for light in the lost and found
Building walls then knocking them down
Caught in the wave just tryna not drown
Oh I'm breaking down over and over
So Sorry
I'm breaking down over and over
Sorry to my family for all the worry
That you found me like that, oh mama I am sorry
Never meant to hurt you, but it's just too much to carry
Sorry for the past as well
It's like a waterfall of emotions
And I let to many people play with my emotions
Where was you when I was at my lowest?
These sad sunsets I can't forget
Life without zest, felt so depressed
And to him, Yeah I miss you more than I thought I could
If I could change things oh god I swear I would
To my friends, sorry for it all
To be ignorant to your call
I know a lot of you struggling too
But for you there is nothing I wouldn't do
I keep breaking down breaking down
Searching for light in the lost and found
Building walls then knocking them down
Caught in the wave just tryna not drown
Oh I'm breaking down over and over
So Sorry
I'm breaking down over and over
Bestie, you are a such a good mother
Bestie, I swear you don't bother
Bestie, you are the prettiest
Bestie, you are the bravest
Bestie, you know I will never let you fall
I would die and kill for you all
And even if I'm no longer here
Look to the stars I'll always be near
I keep breaking down breaking down
Searching for light in the lost and found
Building walls then knocking them down
Caught in the wave just tryna not drown
Oh I'm breaking down over and over
I keep breaking down breaking down
Searching for light in the lost and found
Building walls then knocking them down
Caught in the wave just tryna not drown
Oh I'm breaking down over and over
So sorry
I'm breaking down over and over
Oh I'm sorry
Oh I'm breaking down over and over
Oh I'm sorry
I think I'm breaking down again