Phoebe Godfrey - i sat down with somebody Lyrics

I sat down with somebody
Promised she wouldn't judge me
For the things people did
How I still feel their grip
All the questions that haunt me
And I guess it's all over
And I'm searching for closure
That I'm not gonna get so it is what it is when I lose my composure
I thought I would feel brave telling my story
But afterwards instead I just felt empty
I got older but I never grew up
Got stuck in a cycle I still can't break out of
Everyone says its all in my head and yeah I guess
But it's also in the mirror, my dreams, in my bed
In everywhere I've ever been ever since
And when I start to forget I just make myself pretend
Like these wounds are fresh and relevent and I still see the fingerprints
And my reflection was always someone's silhouette

I sat down with somebody
Promised she wouldn't judge me
For not thinking things through as much as I do
And I thought it was lovely
I thought I would feel strong enough to let go
But what I really am is in need of control
Always broke people cause I couldn't fix me
Made me hard to love to they walked away easy
Everyone says I should be over it but I'm just not ready

Everyone says it's all in my head and yeah I guess but it's also in everywhere I'll ever go
And everywhere I've ever been every since

I sat down with somebody
Promised she wouldn't judge me
For the things that I hid
How I'm not over it
I wish I'd been more trusting
I thought I would feel brave telling my story