Didnt I? Video (MV)

Didnt I
F*ck
Shit
Didnt I keep the race in the distance
Didnt I keep myself miles ahead of my lack of resistance
Didnt I lose my name in persuit of my mission
Didnt I adhere to my aversion to listen
Didnt I
Didnt I
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All a million piece puzzle with one piece thats missing
A risk with no reward same as the pot that I piss in
Pissed of in the crib cuz these scales aint tipping
These racks aint stacking, my bitch aint begging for dicking
A list of firearms, thats a ruger clip
Number one suicide gun works as my superflex
Been sick since the pandemic hit, now drugs my mucinex
Im truly blessed, X out my needs, I got no use for checks
Too many heavy things in my sleep, I got no use for rest
Its twenty times more weight on my knees, I got no use for less
All the stops I been passed, thats what my future left
Heart colder than ice cream in snow, and Ima scoop the rest
Didnt I leave myself, didnt I leave myself
Didnt I leave myself, didnt I leave myself
Im getting older and older, and Im not even trying
My momma sent me a text, like she not even mine
When my vision is wavy, its hard to keep me in line
But I could never be second, boy its not even time
And now my shawty say Im hell on earth
Im more like heaven in hell
I walk in zig-zags and talk in circles
Bout zeitgeist and genocide, wheres Stephon to my Urkel
I lost my brain when I gained new addictions
Lost my smarts when I gained me a mistress
I been trippin to distract myself
Break soul ties, fission
I smile and cry without f*cking my vision
Dry eyes been my type since the day I was born
I knew I been a smoker since the womb im in torn
Im no part sheep, but this hooligan shorn
Shit, man
Didnt I keep the race in the distance
Didnt I keep myself miles ahead of my lack of resistance
Didnt I lose my name in persuit of my mission
Didnt I adhere to my aversion to listen
Didnt I