Skating night after night to get this stress up off my back
Yknow I run this beat like I'm running I'm running a track
I might leave this house
I'm never coming back
I can't call it a home
When I'm inside I feel alone
It's wack
I can make it on my own
I got some cash, not to big of a stack
But if I leave I can get McDonald's
Or a pretty snack
I'm writing this one down
So you know it's coming straight from my heart
Ever bar
Hope the truth'll take me far
Make me super star
And not leave me in the past
Like a broken down car
Poppin off every time
You could call me Busta Rhymes
The way I bust out these rhymes
I cannot lie
When I say I'm doing fine
Man, I won't cry
I'd rather die
Go up and fly
And I'm sober till death
So getting high won't do me nothing
Thought I was goner
Till I caught my breath
I'm taking these steps
They ain't big
But they getting me to where I wanna lay down a rest
Prove it my fam
That I am the best
I'm not just a stress
I'm not just a mess
I know they hate they way I dress
But I look good
Ain't no contest
Imma get everything off my chest
Then I'll dip
Take a personal trip
To where every I want
I'll make it bitch
I'll make me big
Up on the stage
Brand new page
I can't wait
I cannot stay
Rather be away
Than at this messed up house
Call it a cage
Tryna clear my space
Light up some sage
Say some real shit
Even at a young age
Age
Yeah
I'm sorry to the ones hurt
People I upset
But I'm tryna be better
I know it hasn't happened yet
But give me some time
And imma treat em to the best
Better yet. Once I got the cash
Take em on jet
Make sure it's private
Take em to a fancy island
Making sure I look good
Gotta stay stylin
Bought myself some timbs
So my style is flyin
Sorry if I ain't talkin anymore
I enjoy the silence
Yeah
Head is getting violent
I'm going crazy, But I'm drained
Cause I'm stuck on auto pilot
Don't know where I'm going
But I'll be happy because
I got myself
Don't need no help
At least not in my mind
I am fine
Take me back to a couple months ago
Then I'll be alright
Losing my flow, re-using my rhymes
All because I'm losing my mind
Stay stuck up in my head to long
Imma end up dying
Shit
Am I thinking suicide?
I don't know, I might
Every single day turn into a different fight
Bouta move away, catch the closest fight
Yeah
Never thought I had chance
Never had one in sight
But I became my own light
Shining in the dark
Skating out at the park
Or go see my girl
She a lil far
That's alright though
I got myself and dope ass car
Mm
Rev it loud
I'm taking better care of myself
I'm working out
Can't say the same with others
Cause we're falling out
Came back to this beat
Cause I like the way the it sounds
It sounds like I can talk real shit
Without a doubt
Maybe one day
It'll be in front a crowd
Scream my words back to me
Super f*cking loud
Shit, then I'd feel proud
Gotta get life together first
And then move out
Damn
Maybe then I'll ask for a hand
But I been scared
I'm afraid they gone see me weak
Or not as a man
That's why I don't speak
Unless I got a beat
I'm being honest, so now you'll see
That even if I passed
I'd be happy
Just make sure to plant me
With one of them trees
Or dump me in the ocean
I'll float around the sea
But for know I'm done
I'll come back
Just enjoy the beat
Rock