I found an old diary I wrote
Back when I was at my worst
Flipped through the pages and broke
How was I ever smiling as her
She's stronger than I've ever known
I guess I just never realized
Videos from 5 years ago
No one knew I was so low
Trying too hard was one way to go
I lost the memory of a girl I'd known
But i'm glad in a way to lose her
She never even wanted to exist
When she died I got happy so f*ck her lets all raise our glasses to the roof
You can't pollute what I do
When she died I felt alive again so f*ck her and the friends who didn't even notice
You don't get to have me now
When I'm good, and you want a piece
And say "do you remember me"
I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't
Can't even drive past the places we laughed
When I go back I just feel like crap
I know temporary never lasts
But I thought we were stronger than that
You threw me away at every chance
I don't think I've ever felt so desperate
You broke me, I don't know if you notice
But I hate your existence
When she died I got happy so f*ck her lets all raise our glasses to the roof
You can't pollute what I do
When she died I felt alive again so f*ck her and the friends who didn't even notice
You don't get to have me now
When I'm good, and you want a piece
And say "do you remember me"
I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't
(I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't)
(I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't)
I cried myself to sleep, I tried for so long
All I ever wanted was to be enough
I tried damn near everything
It's so f*cking tough
It won't matter what I did for you
I'm never enough
I tried too hard, it became too much
I was losing myself trying to be who you want
All I ever wanted was to be enough
Even your one apology can't fix it all
When she died I got happy so f*ck her lets all raise our glasses to the roof
You can't pollute what I do
When she died I felt alive again so f*ck her and the friends who didn't even notice
You don't get to have me now
When I'm good, and you want a piece
And say "do you remember me"
I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't
(I don't remember you)
(I don't, I don't, I don't remember you)
(I don't, I don't, I don't remember you)
(I don't, I don't, I don't remember you)
I don't remember you