Pluto Beats - just that Lyrics

I hate thinking of you for my own mistakes
I miss you but I would never say
If I saw you I'd walk the other way
But when I'm angry at myself late, I'd like to think differently
I have the argument in my head, but I know I'd lose
I'd go quiet, forget my point, then repeat, review
Its pathetic when you lay it out, why am I like this
I'm so smart and quick by myself
Maybe I'd be better off stupid

Oh, I am, actually
Sorry that was an after thought
A conversation tragedy
Of quiet forgotten thoughts

I regret all the words I never said
I wish I could go back and not hold my breath
I stay up late hating myself
I should've told you what I'll never get to say
But I don't think you'd care anyways
Its been so long and it still bothers me
I'll never get closure on the words I held back
But it's my fault so I'll suck it up
What was is just that

Do you know that you're a shitty person
No you aren't a killer, but for sure below average
I know I could've f*cked worse, but I still wish I hadn't
I gave myself to you like it would end as earth on heaven
But you're evil, your smile doesn't blend with the stars
You walked away, footsteps disappearing in the dark
Go back to where you love, only lust in your heart
Blood stains on white, before you I was so pure

Look what you did to me
You ruined me
I overthink what I didn't say
But if I saw you, I'd run the other way

I regret all the words I never said
I wish I could go back and not hold my breath
I stay up late hating myself
I should've told you what I'll never get to say
But I don't think you'd care anyways
Its been so long and it still bothers me
I'll never get closure on the words I held back
But it's my fault so I'll suck it up
What was is just that

(Was that, was just that)
What was is just that
(Was that, was just that)

I'm still hurt
Mourning another versions death
You broke me
I'll never get that off my chest
It haunts me
I don't think it'll ever stop
Always crying
How is this how we ended up
I trusted you
With everything, even my gut
Saw a husband
Smiled thinking of a future
But you burned the pages to the book that'll never finish
The words scribbled off the pages, 'cause you'll never get to listen

I regret all the words I never said
I wish I could go back and not hold my breath
I stay up late hating myself
I should've told you what I'll never get to say
But I don't think you'd care anyways
Its been so long and it still bothers me
I'll never get closure on the words I held back
But it's my fault so I'll suck it up
What was is just that

(Have you thought of me recently?)
(You are still everything to me)
(What we are now is purely nothing)
(But like we were, we could be something)
(But you don't want me back)
(You don't miss what we had)
(I can't hope against facts)
(So what we had is just that)